Decided to go through with it

[Babaa]

My chosen method is OD by Metoprolol. I've already taken them. I feel very neutral. I've tried this before, and it's never worked because I've chickened out and puked it back up. But I've taken enough this time to ensure it. Exactly 45 25mg pills. If I don't feel any effects, I'll take the rest of the bottle.

I'm tired. That's the best way I can describe how I feel. I'm tired. I don't want to get out of bed anymore because I'm tired of having to deal with the same shit, different day.

The only things I can think of that I will miss is my girlfriend, friends, cats, and writing. I've made a small fanbase off my writing, but I can't handle the stress my followers cause me anymore.

BPD is one hell of a disorder, but I'm happy to finally become part of the 10% that actually go through with it.

 

[dreamscape1111]

You are loved no matter why you choose to do from here on out.

What kind of writing were you doing?

Favorite memories?

Any regrets and life lessons you learned from this life?

I'll light a candle for the unlimited Loving Light, the Oneness, that you'll return to by leaving this body vehicle behind.

Wishing you a smooth transition to Infinity.