TinySlitsThatScream
Freak
- Jan 28, 2025
- 16
16th of February 2025.
That's my date, 11 days to go.
I will overdose on the only med I have, hydroxyzine mixed with one or two bottles of strong alcohol (45%). I know my heart is very sensitive, so I'm holding onto the fact that my heart will fail from this.
Or, I'll jump off a bridge, I found one which I know will kill me, since rescue is nearly impossible.
I have no ideas if I'll have the courage to do it the moment it arrives, but I know it's for my best.
My mental health's making it impossible for me to live peacefully anymore, it's more pain than anything else.
I'd rather end it all now, than trying over and over again, bearing a constant growing mental pain.
That's my date, 11 days to go.
I will overdose on the only med I have, hydroxyzine mixed with one or two bottles of strong alcohol (45%). I know my heart is very sensitive, so I'm holding onto the fact that my heart will fail from this.
Or, I'll jump off a bridge, I found one which I know will kill me, since rescue is nearly impossible.
I have no ideas if I'll have the courage to do it the moment it arrives, but I know it's for my best.
My mental health's making it impossible for me to live peacefully anymore, it's more pain than anything else.
I'd rather end it all now, than trying over and over again, bearing a constant growing mental pain.
