Method Decided on Methylmethaqualone to CTB.

[Droso]

Preface: I will not be catching the bus anytime soon. This is all worked out in advance. I do not have a set due date, but imagine it will be around late June to early October.

The welfare check posts has pushed me away from using SN as my method. As much as I do not know if they are real, I also have no way to know if they are truly fake. I am still currently living with my family and if I received a welfare check for SN, my mom would know I was not planning on using it for "meat curing." I would be sent to the psych ward which is the last place I want to be.

Many drug users will buy research chemicals from pharmaceutical companies to get high. Methylmethaqualone is one of these drugs which is also very lethal. Since it is a research drug and not tied to most ctb methods, I severely doubt I would get a welfare check. Tests for methylmethaqualone are easily found online so I can ensure that my drug is actually the drug I ordered.

I will be using the framework of the SN protocol, but replacing some things. In order to avoid aspiration from the seizures induced by MMQ, I will also be taking an anti-emetic.

The protocol

8 hours before MMQ: Fasting from food. Minimal water.
2 hours before MMQ: Fasting from water.
40 mins before MMQ: 30mg of Metoclopramide.
During the wait: Encapsulate 1g of MMQ each into two 00 sized capsules. Crush 800mg of Oxazepam and mix in water.
After the 40 min wait: Consume the MMQ pills. Take 5g pills worth of Carisoprodol. Drink Oxazepam.

Dosages

Methylmethaqualone: 2 grams
Oxazepam: 800 milligrams
Carisoprodol: 5 grams
Metoclopramide: 30 milligrams

The main killer would be the MMQ, but the mixing of Oxazepam and Carisoprodol will make it even more lethal. I have no doubts this will kill me. My main worry would be how long it would take and if seizures would alert hotel staff to enter my room. I plan on having a do not disturb sign on the door and doing it inside the bathroom.

If anyone has any criticisms or suggestions, please let me know.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'll admit I know nothing about this drug MMQ, but a cursory search on the web resulted in "zero" hits for me that talked about it having been lethal in any dose to any person. There's just no data I can find. To me 2 grams seems like a very small amount for lethality. If you're wanting/willing to guinea pig yourself, though, good luck to you.

 

[Droso]

I'll admit I know nothing about this drug MMQ, but a cursory search on the web resulted in "zero" hits for me that talked about it having been lethal in any dose to any person. There's just no data I can find. To me 2 grams seems like a very small amount for lethality. If you're wanting/willing to guinea pig yourself, though, good luck to you.

MMQ is a quaalude analogue for Methaqualone. It's very specific and you will usually only find people talking about it on Reddit. There is not a lot of specific information on MMQ. However, if you research Methaqualone and quaalude analogues you will see how lethal they are. 2 grams is actually pretty overkill.

 

[maniac116]

Just be aware that analog can cause neurotoxicity. There's a chance you could awaken to a failed attempt with severe neurological disability. Just full disclosure!

 

[Droso]

Just be aware that analog can cause neurotoxicity. There's a chance you could awaken to a failed attempt with severe neurological disability. Just full disclosure!

Yes, I am aware, thank you for addressing this in the thread as people may be reading and considering MMQ. I forgot to mention this in the OG post.

That is one of my concerns, too. I know there is always a chance of failure so I plan on reducing any risks of being found.

My family and friends know I am in an open relationship, so I plan to make my hotel visit look like I'm going on a date with someone and having sex there. There won't actually be an actual person to frame, just a straight up lie. It would make sense to rent a hotel because I live with family. It would be probably from a Friday to a Sunday, doing the protocol Friday night.

Leading up to this, I need to ensure this action is not suspicious or out of character. I'll probably mention to my mom I'm on Grindr. I rarely communicate much with her either way, so going ghost for a couple days will be normal especially if I'm on a "date."