Death is my only way out

[skyfall]

Death is the only way to escape these lethal trauma of mine.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this pain and suffering in existing, only ceasing to exist can personally bring me relief as well, I wish you the best.

 

[darksouls]

hope you find the peace you deserve

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. I hope you find peace.

 

[Lapdog6795]

If you can describe the issue bit more people here might be able to help you better.
If you've made up your mind then I wish you the best.