Barteljaap

Barteljaap

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Jan 17, 2021
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After a 2 week break from this site and trying to improve things, I once again want to ctb. I had a job interview yesterday and the way it went has more or less provided the final catalyst. I'm even more certain now that there's no place for me in society. I'm going to travel into the city tomorrow and try to find a good place to die. Ideally a high place to jump from as that would be my preferred method. But failing that, I'll look for a good place for a hanging or poisoning. I'm going to gather whatever information I need to formulate a concrete plan. For the two weeks after that I'll prepare and I'll execute the plan on Thursday the 18th.

Thanks for reading.
 
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AQUA

AQUA

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Dec 2, 2020
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I'll be rooting for you...always!
 
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NodusTollens

NodusTollens

Nov 17, 2020
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Sorry to hear things haven't gotten better for you. HUGS. You made an effort with the job interview, despite not getting it.

I hope your time until you CTB can bring you peace.
 
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blue_muse

blue_muse

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Jan 31, 2021
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Really admirable you gave yourself a break from SS and actively tried improving things. I find giving oneself more time to see if things change can make one more determined, but in a rational way. You've got people who will support you even if there's a change of heart :happy:.
 
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Bigpink

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Oct 12, 2020
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Safe travels friend, hope it all goes well for you.
 
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