C2theN

C2theN

Nobody Dast Blame Me
Nov 25, 2018
28
I'm looking for something off the Darknet on a budget of $80-$100. N is out of question. I already have Zofran, insulin, and a tiny amount of Oxy and codeine. Also Gabapentin, Depakote, Lamictal and Clonidine.

I'm thinking Zofran for puking, then long-acting insulin, then opioids and vodka to relax, then short-acting insulin. I know insulin is unreliable, so I'm hoping I can get something else to seal the deal. What could I get short of heroin? Xanax, maybe? What if I add the Gabapentin?

I'm on Social Security for diabetes, bipolar, PTSD and now trigeminal neuralgia, literally the most painful condition known to man. The walls are closing in. Guns are too expensive, I can't stand the thought of hanging, and while I'm not afraid of heights, I am afraid of hitting the ground.
 
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Virgo

Arcanist
Oct 3, 2018
497
Why not sn or sa? No need for the darknet
 
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C2theN

C2theN

Nobody Dast Blame Me
Nov 25, 2018
28
Any idea if alcohol or Oxy would get in the way?
 
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Karl30

Member
May 19, 2018
58
Heroin?
 
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Armadillo

Experienced
Oct 24, 2018
224
What's your oxy tolerance? With 100$ worth of bitcoins you could buy some #4 Heroin.
That's pure hydrocloride diacetylmorphine (white color, also called China White) wich readily dissolves in water with no need to heat the solutions or add weak acids.
Take orally the medications you have then IV or IM the Heroin. If you're not super-tolerant to opioids and you're not found it should work.

That's one of the best options IMO. Xanax is not as effective and Fentanyl is not as easy to find (many darknet markets banned it for too high OD risk), also there's the possibility that you won't actually get real Fentanyl but a much weaker analogue.

Good luck. If you need reccomendations for markets or vendors just ask.
 
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C2theN

Nobody Dast Blame Me
Nov 25, 2018
28
I'd love to go out in a heroin haze, but I'm hesitant, for a couple reasons.

(A) The legal risks are extremely high, and an arrest is a sure way to miss the bus.

(B) Even phlebotomists can barely find my veins. Snorting would be easier but less reliable.

I'm researching SN & SA. My worry there is that the PPH reports don't really match with the levels of pain & distress in published studies. It seems like there's some cherry-picking going on, though it might just be a matter of dosage. But if booze or a bit of Oxy could help reduce the suffering...
 
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C2theN

Nobody Dast Blame Me
Nov 25, 2018
28
Armadillo, opiate/opioid tolerance should be zero, & I agree a good dose of purish H (such as there is) would likely do the trick, esp if combined with a backup. Vendor recommendation would def help. I'm too new to PM, but if you can do it in reverse, please be in touch. I appreciate it. Thanks, guys. This place gives me hope.
 
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Darrenloses

Darrenloses

Student
Nov 27, 2018
105
I haven't read many threads here, but isn't Xanax & Alcohol a fatal combination. Hasn't there been threads suggesting CTB via that method?
 
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C2theN

Nobody Dast Blame Me
Nov 25, 2018
28
I've wondered the same thing, but my impression is that it's not as reliable as it sounds. Mixing central nervous system depressants can def be fatal, but I'm always amazed by the things people survive. If I go this route I'd want to add a much stronger CNS like heroin.
 
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voool

Experienced
Sep 18, 2018
261
I've wondered the same thing, but my impression is that it's not as reliable as it sounds. Mixing central nervous system depressants can def be fatal, but I'm always amazed by the things people survive. If I go this route I'd want to add a much stronger CNS like heroin.
Go on dream market and search vendors from the US. Read reviews
 
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TheNorthernSilence

Arcanist
Nov 13, 2018
430
I haven't read many threads here, but isn't Xanax & Alcohol a fatal combination. Hasn't there been threads suggesting CTB via that method?
I think you need opioids with that combination. But I think you'll have to study it because you don't want to end up choking on your own vomit or anything like that while being conscious.
 
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Armadillo

Experienced
Oct 24, 2018
224
Like voool said, I also suggest using Dream Market.

Here's the URL:

http://uhivlt5grrqjhad7.onion/?ai=1675

I'm gonna log in with my old account and look for vendors with good ratings. Will report back in a while.
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Sign up, log in, click on "Drugs" and search for China White on the bar.
I only looked at Escrow vendors (it's less likely to get scammed with them).
The guy integrity-honesty seems legit for example, even though the prices are crazy.
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On the alcohol and Xanax combo... it's extremely unreliable. You need A LOT of benzos and alcohol to cause serious respiratory depression.
 
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