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stillweary

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May 15, 2020
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Does anyone else feel like they've been singled out by God or the Universe or whatever and arbitrarily cursed with horrific luck? If you told me about curses 15 years ago, I would have laughed at you. In fact, I was actually an atheist for a long time. But I have faced so many seemingly random and horrific things in life that just don't seem to happen to other people. Statistically speaking, it doesn't make sense that so many bad things can happen to one person. And it's not just confirmation bias-- for example, lots of people have to deal with the loss of a job or a loved one or whatever, but not as many have to suffer from freak illnesses, freak storms that destroy their towns, freak accidents that destroy work prospects, etc., one right after the other for years on end with seemingly no end in sight. People like to talk about karma and past lives and reaping what you sow, but for whatever I may have been in a past life, I know I wasn't THAT bad. I'm suicidal because I want to get away from whatever being or entity has cursed me. I actually like myself otherwise and feel like I could have actually enjoyed this life if I had just been left alone, but if the last 20 years are any indication, life as it stands isn't worth it. It's a shame, really.
 
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Emily123

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May 28, 2019
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The worst possible things always happen to me too .
 
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epic

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Does anyone else feel like they've been singled out by God or the Universe or whatever and arbitrarily cursed with horrific luck? If you told me about curses 15 years ago, I would have laughed at you. In fact, I was actually an atheist for a long time. But I have faced so many seemingly random and horrific things in life that just don't seem to happen to other people. Statistically speaking, it doesn't make sense that so many bad things can happen to one person. And it's not just confirmation bias-- for example, lots of people have to deal with the loss of a job or a loved one or whatever, but not as many have to suffer from freak illnesses, freak storms that destroy their towns, freak accidents that destroy work prospects, etc., one right after the other for years on end with seemingly no end in sight. People like to talk about karma and past lives and reaping what you sow, but for whatever I may have been in a past life, I know I wasn't THAT bad. I'm suicidal because I want to get away from whatever being or entity has cursed me. I actually like myself otherwise and feel like I could have actually enjoyed this life if I had just been left alone, but if the last 20 years are any indication, life as it stands isn't worth it. It's a shame, really.
That is exactly how I feel .
1. Freak social embarrassment .
2. Freak financial situation.
3. Freak disease-(the last straw).
The improbability of all 3 events, feels as if I am being singled out by someone who is having fun at my expense. He must be laughing his ass off watching me trying to make it out of this mess when there is no escape just like lab rats.
It is very unlikely that a "conscious being" is doing it, but it does feel that way.
 
Zozo

Zozo

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May 4, 2020
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Yeah me too. Im always in that wrong place at the wrong time. I mean I try to be a good person...and I think I am in most cases but the stupidest things happen to me one after the other...horrible luck man.
In fact i just got pulled over and ticketed on my way to work this morning. I wasn't speeding or driving recklessly or anything. They started doing construction near one of the intersections on my route to work and temporarily made it a "do not turn left" ..well being a creature of habit and taking this exact same route for over 2 years I turned left and woop woop!
 
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TheGoodGuy

Visionary
Aug 27, 2018
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No I feel like the universe or simulation are singling me out like I can sit in my appartment all day and 5 seconds after I step foot outside it starts to rain, or I am walking for maybe 10-20 minutes and the second I have to cross the road a car appears like it spawned around the corner just to make me uncomfortable and this can happen on my night walks too like at 3am no cars for half an hour and when I am about to cross the road a car appears a coincidence I think not!

And it´s about everything I try to repress my anger and be a nice person yet in the last 2 weeks random men has yelled at me from their car like the universe or simulation wants me to go off. and I had special plans and then corona virus hit and in my mind it´s just to mess with my plans.

But there are so many things like my physical and mental health gets worse year by year is there someone in controlling the simulation who tries to see how much I can take before I crack?
 
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Good4Nothing

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May 8, 2020
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I feel this way, too. Life hates me. The universe hates me. I can't win.
I've reached a point where I don't even try anymore. I already know I'm gonna lose, so why bother even trying?
 
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lymestolemylife

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Nov 27, 2019
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The worst possible things always happen to me too .
Born to deaf parents, Mother Bipolar and emotionally abusive, Father let mother do anything to my sister and I because my mom was all my Father really cared about, very poor, became bulimic at 12, tried to commit suicide at 17, recovered after suicide attempt and was doing well, working at college and getting good grades, mother accused me of doing drugs because I was watching movies at my boyfriends house till 9pm every night lol.

Mom starts screaming and foaming at the mouth accusing me of doing drugs so I punched her. Was pissed she was accusing me of that when I was doing very well. Get thrown out, moved in with boyfriend I didnt really like because I had no where to go, hated it and ran away from there, became a stripper at 18 because I had no other options, stop stripping at 19 when I met my first husband who was a borderline/psyco alcoholic who beat me.

He ended up cheating on me(no suprise) and I moved out and took care of myself with my $15/hr job. Got another job after that that paid well, met my current husband. We planned to get married but I ended up pregnant. Go to the Doctor for my pregnancy and that is when I started getting vaccinations for pregnancy.
Start developing weird symptoms, like carpal tunnel and arthritis, lots of weird swelling, give birth, they tell me I needed a MMr Vaccine, so I took it.

Got extremely ill right after birth with a strange "infection" 2 weeks after the vaccine I experienced a 8 month long migraine the migraine was severe level 7-10 morning noon and night no breaks. Got sicker and sicker. Suprisingly got pregnant again when I thought there was no way it was possible. Was diagnosed with Lyme Disease.... My second daughter was born with severe birth defects, lungs, rib cage, kyphoscoliosis, cleft palate.

Had to leave my job, had to care for extremely medically fragile child with Lyme Disease and a difficult toddler. In and out of the hospital for my second daughter.
She eventually died at age 6.

Last 3 1/2 years I get sicker and sicker, constant infections, parasitic infections, seizures, tia strokes, had what feels like heart attacks, (had at least 5 of those already) now I cant walk or stand much longer than 2 minutes because there is something severely wrong with my spine, back, legs, feet. Daily nerve pain in my arms, feet that tortures me. Can't eat many foods without severe pain. My body will not just give up and die. It would be merciful if God just let me die. Why can't I die!? I've been close to dying at least 6-7 times now from the heart attacks, seizures, strokes....
Enough!
 
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last_tour

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Apr 8, 2020
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Well according to evolutionary theory humans and pretty much all species were a mistake. You're right about having horrific luck, we only got this far because we evolved the random traits to survive just enough to have enough offsprings to have an existence in this world. Its not so hard to imagine something in the environment to change that would make us go extinct. We still have many traits that make us a really flawed species.

One of those traits is bipedalism. Our hearts have to pump blood with higher pressure to send blood vertically since we stand upright. This is the reason why we are more prone to heart disease than other species. Traits of bipedalism also puts pressure to the hip bone and so we are prone to developing severe back pain later in life. Theres a whole bunch of other stuff on how the heart had to mutate into this complex and fragile mechanism to adapt to pressures of bipedalism. It gave me the impression that humans were freaks of nature and we only barely got this far and have to suffer for it.
 
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Bct

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Apr 20, 2020
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Sorry this happened to all of you. I believe luck (not the superstitious side) contributes to people's lives on some degrees so it's really disheartening to see people suffer because of continuous streaks of bad luck.
 
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yetme

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Oct 20, 2019
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Does anyone else feel like they've been singled out by God or the Universe or whatever and arbitrarily cursed with horrific luck? If you told me about curses 15 years ago, I would have laughed at you. In fact, I was actually an atheist for a long time. But I have faced so many seemingly random and horrific things in life that just don't seem to happen to other people. Statistically speaking, it doesn't make sense that so many bad things can happen to one person. And it's not just confirmation bias-- for example, lots of people have to deal with the loss of a job or a loved one or whatever, but not as many have to suffer from freak illnesses, freak storms that destroy their towns, freak accidents that destroy work prospects, etc., one right after the other for years on end with seemingly no end in sight. People like to talk about karma and past lives and reaping what you sow, but for whatever I may have been in a past life, I know I wasn't THAT bad. I'm suicidal because I want to get away from whatever being or entity has cursed me. I actually like myself otherwise and feel like I could have actually enjoyed this life if I had just been left alone, but if the last 20 years are any indication, life as it stands isn't worth it. It's a shame, really.

oh fuck yeah! The chain of events that led me up to the state I'm currently in just amazes me. I never won lottery in my life, but this shit!? What are the chances of that? So yeah, now I believe in luck. I think it's some sort of energy that you have or you don't.
There's a good movie about luck called Intacto. I highly recommend it:

 
Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Oct 30, 2019
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I'd say most of us here have shit luck. It's almost a prerequisite to join the forum.
 
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Well according to evolutionary theory humans and pretty much all species were a mistake. You're right about having horrific luck, we only got this far because we evolved the random traits to survive just enough to have enough offsprings to have an existence in this world. Its not so hard to imagine something in the environment to change that would make us go extinct. We still have many traits that make us a really flawed species.

One of those traits is bipedalism. Our hearts have to pump blood with higher pressure to send blood vertically since we stand upright. This is the reason why we are more prone to heart disease than other species. Traits of bipedalism also puts pressure to the hip bone and so we are prone to developing severe back pain later in life. Theres a whole bunch of other stuff on how the heart had to mutate into this complex and fragile mechanism to adapt to pressures of bipedalism. It gave me the impression that humans were freaks of nature and we only barely got this far and have to suffer for it.
This. Random mutations in successive generations until something sticks. A blip set against a backdrop of constant entropy, we are constantly swimming against an inexorable tide. Many people intuitively feel this. Sometimes those that do find themselves here. But we have to have explanations for things because we need reasons due to that big pattern recognising lump within our crania. So we are cursed. Or something is punishing us. Whatever we choose to turn away from the fact that nature doesn't give a shit.
 
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Exitforme

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Oct 3, 2019
85
I'm convinced that, with such horrific luck, I must surely have been Hitler in the past life and I'm now being punished for my past sins.

German has always been easy to understand so I might just be into something...
 

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