CTB tonight (May 27, 2022)

[Jaegerist123]

I'm going to try to CTB tonight.

Hmm. I thought I had a few weeks to try but I don't think I want to wait any longer.

(1) I have SN
(2) I ordered N to arrive from D and am still waiting for it in the mail.

Earlier this month I had planned to take SN and N together. But the N most likely will arrive next week. But I don't want to wait any longer.

I'm going to try to follow Stan's Method for SN as best as I can. I'll follow the stat dose.

I have Tagamet, Metoclopramide and Ondansetron as medications.

 

[freedompass]

To be honest I would try to hang on for the N and focus on that, not the SN. Taking both would definitely seem like overkill. N is peaceful painless and reliable if you are not found. I hear that you are impatient to be gone and ultimately it's of course your choice, just my two cents.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand being desperate to leave this world. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Jaegerist123]

I have just taken 4 SleepAid pills
2 Baicalin pills
4 Dimenhydrinate pills
2 Kaopectate pills
4 Pepto Herbal Blends (Ginger and Chamomile) pills
4 Melatonin (12 mg)
2 Imodium caplets
4 Dramamine-N (50 mg) pills
4 Meclizine Hydrochloride (25mg) pills

with 500 mL of water

 

[JustAFriendlyGuy]

I'm going to try to CTB tonight.

Hmm. I thought I had a few weeks to try but I don't think I want to wait any longer.

(1) I have SN
(2) I ordered N to arrive from D and am still waiting for it in the mail.

Earlier this month I had planned to take SN and N together. But the N most likely will arrive next week. But I don't want to wait any longer.

I'm going to try to follow Stan's Method for SN as best as I can. I'll follow the stat dose.

I have Tagamet, Metoclopramide and Ondansetron as medications.

I wish you nothing but peace and happiness, regardless on how it turns out for you. We may not have interacted with each other, but i think i can speak for everyone when i say, that it does affect one to witness someone leaving. You will definetly be remembered. Much love ❤

 

[Jaegerist123]

I have now taken some tylenol as a painkiller
I have now taken the metoclopramide. I swallowed 4 pills of 10mg tablets.

 

[JustAFriendlyGuy]

I have now taken some tylenol as a painkiller I have now taken the metoclopramide. I swallowed 4 pills of 10mg tablets.

Hope you are feeling well so far?

 

[Jaegerist123]

I'm surprised by how easily the SN dissolved into the water. It was very quick and easy. Now I should be drinking it here in a few minutes.

 

[Brianiskillingme]

Lots of us are here for you.

 

[Jaegerist123]

Hope you are feeling well so far?

I feel okay.

 

[JustAFriendlyGuy]

I feel okay.

That's good to hear

 

[Jaegerist123]

I just swallowed 4 pills of Tagamet.
I really hope this is as painless as people say it is.

 

[Brianiskillingme]

I just swallowed 4 pills of Tagamet.
I really hope this is as painless as people say it is.

You have done a lot of prepping. I hope your journey is peaceful as well.

 

[~Q~]

Safe journey. May you go in peace.

 

[Nirrend]

I hope you'll find peace <3

 

[Jaegerist123]

I have ~20 minutes left until I drink the SN.

My original plan was to drink N after drinking SN but I am impatient I suppose. I feel like today is as good as any other day. But because I don't have the N, my death may take a few hours longer and certainly may not be guaranteed.

I sure hope I don't wake up in the hospital with needles trying to save my life. I wonder if a note like "Please don't resuscitate me" would help with anything. That may make it look like a suicide attempt whereas currently I didn't leave a lot of evidence around to be suspicious that this was a suicide attempt. I could possibly say that I tasted a salty drink from online on the internet and it made me sick.

Oh. I have 2 different sources of SN. One is initialed with SD and the second is DE. I am going to make use of SD's SN on my first attempt with SN. This is the first attempt with SN for me as well. I have failed using plant seeds like the Yew plant seeds failed for me. I'm glad I found this forum where I could find SN and N.

I would have taken Ondansetron pills as well since I have those available but my memory says that those pills are used with N and not SN.

 

[wljourney]

Jaegerist, I thought your N was just seized? You ordered again, hoping this one would make it through?

Any unexpected death will likely be investigated and a blood sample would very quickly show how you died.
You can leave a note and make it easier, but it's not necessary.

If you have taken Meto, you don't need to also take Odansetron. They both do the same and you don't want to throw up just because of all the different preparation pills.

I'm sorry you feel this urgency, but can understand it of course.
Please let us know how you are doing. It's ok if you decide not to go through with it today.
If you do, I hope it is painless and as fast as you hoped.

 

[Jaegerist123]

Jaegerist, I thought your N was just seized? You ordered again, hoping this one would make it through?

Yea, I decided to order again. I requested a different disguise for the bottles from the last time I ordered and he said he would do that.

But yea, I'm not patient enough to wait right now. It's Friday today. The weekend is here. I finished work today. And even though it's kind of sudden and I didn't plan for today to be my last day, I really don't want to wait for the N. I hear the taste is nasty and so that kind of puts me off as well. Even if it's a good method, I don't know, I don't mind trying SN by itself and seeing how that goes. I could always try to play it off like it wasn't a suicide attempt. I don't know.

I have ~5 minutes until I take SN.

I'm going to use mouthwash (listerine ~ which claims to have ~20% alcohol) to wash out the taste of the SN from my mouth.

Does anyone recommend eating some chocolate too? I have that by my bedside.

 

[hauntedglass]

wishing you the best <3

 

[Brianiskillingme]

If the taste is too nasty, chocolate is ok. Small piece.

 

[wljourney]

See how you feel after drinking the SN. You may feel a little nauseous, if you don't then a bit of chocolate is fine. Slowly and try listening to your body.
Sending love.

 

[Jaegerist123]

I swallowed the medication
Goodbye everyone

 

[Brianiskillingme]

We are here with you.

 

[wljourney]

 

[Jaegerist123]

This is what I'll listen to as I sleep.

 

[hankbank3928]

Goodbye friend!

 

[wljourney]

How are you feeling? I hope all the prep worked and paid off for you. I would hate to see you suffer.

 

[Brianiskillingme]

How are you feeling? I hope all the prep worked and paid off for you. I would hate to see you suffer.

I was thinking the same thing. Hope they are asleep by now.

 

[Shu]

@Imustbefree

 

[wljourney]

I was thinking the same thing. Hope they are asleep by now.

I'm not sure. It's been 15 min since his last post. It may take another 15 to doze off. This is the hard part.

EDIT:
I hate these threads.
And I also love that people don't have to CTB completely alone. But damn they are hard.