Ctb today / few days

[rachybee]

So I've decided yes. I haven't got my SN yet. But I want to ctb today. I'm so tired of bullshit form services and trying. I'm over it.


I haven't 186 (maybe a bit more) pills mixed paracetamol and ibuprofen.

I'm thinking I will drink vodka and then take them and then go to bed. I can die. I'm over this life.

I know it maybe will take a few days. And could be painful. But it's no more pain than I have in my mind

 

[struggles_inc]

Are you sure that's a reliable method, though?

 

[rachybee]

Are you sure that's a reliable method, though?

I'm not sure. I've od before and then in hosp on a drip for stuff because I nearly died. And I have. Lot more pills today.

So yea even if it takes a bit this should kill me.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you're so desperate but reconsider your decision. I hope you find peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of it all, I hope you find freedom from suffering.

 

[rachybee]

I really understand feeling so tired of it all, I hope you find freedom from suffering.

Thankyou. I so so done. I just wish I knew for sure my plan would work. But gotta try. 'If at first you don't succeed, try again'

 

[NeverHis]

Don't do this. You will just vomit it all up, and possibly end up in the ER. Trust me, I've tried and the nurse told me "if that's truly what you want, that's not what you should take".
NSAIDs are not a reliable method, I'm sure there's threads on this very forum about that.

 

[rachybee]

Don't do this. You will just vomit it all up, and possibly end up in the ER. Trust me, I've tried and the nurse told me "if that's truly what you want, that's not what you should take".
NSAIDs are not a reliable method, I'm sure there's threads on this very forum about that.

Thanks. I'm trying. Not to do it but it's so easy

 

[NeverHis]

I understand the need to CTB, but NSAIDs really are not it. Unfortunately. If it was, it wouldn't be sold over the counter.

 

[Thisisnotaname]

You just will be sick, don't do this plz

 

[rachybee]

You just will be sick, don't do this plz

I think you are right. I still wanna try it's so hard. I haven't got what o need to ctb. I want my life to end. And I don't know what to do

 

[Thisisnotaname]

I can relate but paracétamol is a fkin painfull method. You prolly die with it but after 72h+ sickness and pain. You prolly call 911 before this time. And you will have bad deceases

 

[rachybee]

I can relate but paracétamol is a fkin painfull method. You prolly die with it but after 72h+ sickness and pain. You prolly call 911 before this time. And you will have bad deceases

I'm like it will work mentally? So I can die

 

[Thisisnotaname]

Tbh just dont do this.

 

[rachybee]

Tbh just dont do this.

I will try not too. But I just wanted to do it and see. I need to ctb I can't cope anymore.

 

[Thisisnotaname]

There are so many effective methods, better and faster than this. You really want to suffer like this ?
Look, I'm disgusting myself but I don't wanna suffer like this. If you need to be sure about this, try to check symptoms on internet.
I know Vidal for refering to any meds symptoms but I don't know if it's international. Maybe only french refering

 

[rachybee]

Well I've started.

 

[Thisisnotaname]

Can't say anything else than "be careful" ...
But be aware if you call emergency they have the right antidot for paracetamol OD