‘Accidental’ CTB?

[rachybee]

So - I have DMC sorted etc. still trying to find other places cheaper first but to no avail.

I've been a sh-er for 20+ years. And usually now my method I tend to get infections. I also have food stuff and I can fast for a good couple weeks.

I'm wondering - if I do my usual sh method that I know gives me an infection, and also fast etc - will this look like 'accidental' ctb? As my infections can get quite bad (actually neon green at times).

I'm just so sick and tired and I don't want to make it to Christmas but DMC won't be here till new year.

I'm over it all. I want it gone. I do have 186 ibuprofen/ paracetamol mixed. So I could take them too.

No one here gets it. Not even my cpn. I don't know what else to do. As I mentioned the train here yesterday and I get it would be awful for those involved.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It wouldn't bee seen as an accident. A coroner would easily find out what actually led to death. Can you remove all traces of the SBN you ingested after you ingested it? probably traces of it can easily be found after someone finds your corpse.

 

[rachybee]

It wouldn't bee seen as an accident. A coroner would easily find out what actually led to death. Can you remove all traces of the SBN you ingested after you ingested it? probably traces of it can easily be found after someone finds your corpse.

I'm not sure. The SN just will take so long to get here and I want it now.

I know the overdose will be obvious but if it's sh gone wrong? I dunno.

I just don't want to hurt anyone (not that anyone would even know I died as no one comes to see me ever)

 

[FuneralCry]

I also feel really tired of suffering in this existence, I understand just wanting to be gone, I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for.

 

[rachybee]

I also feel really tired of suffering in this existence, I understand just wanting to be gone, I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for.

Thankyou

 

[AlTheObviousAlien]

I'm not sure. The SN just will take so long to get here and I want it now.

I know the overdose will be obvious but if it's sh gone wrong? I dunno.

I just don't want to hurt anyone (not that anyone would even know I died as no one comes to see me ever)

If the SN arrives after you pass, idk if the cop may open the package and put two and two together. Like they may be asking themselves what's this random package from the Ukraine doing here and why did they order it for after they passed etc...

 

[rachybee]

If the SN arrives after you pass, idk if the cop may open the package and put two and two together. Like they may be asking themselves what's this random package from the Ukraine doing here and why did they order it for after they passed etc...

I get this. It's just I'm so worried that his site will be shutdown with the influx of people using it and his interview he did and people taking it so I want to have the option whilst it's still going.

But then I'm like let's do ….. and then I can ctb before the year is out. I wish I was like a tv and I could just press the off switch

 

[AlTheObviousAlien]

I get this. It's just I'm so worried that his site will be shutdown with the influx of people using it and his interview he did and people taking it so I want to have the option whilst it's still going.

But then I'm like let's do ….. and then I can ctb before the year is out. I wish I was like a tv and I could just press the off switch

I understand that fear as well. I had it and still kinda do. But as someone stated before in a post I read, they aren't doing anything technically illegal and there is technically a disclaimer. Idk if that helps your nerves but I would wipe your phone and everything of SS in general because you CTB can be used against this site.

 

[rachybee]

I understand that fear as well. I had it and still kinda do. But as someone stated before in a post I read, they aren't doing anything technically illegal and there is technically a disclaimer. Idk if that helps your nerves but I would wipe your phone and everything of SS in general because you CTB can be used against this site.

Ah definitely when I do it I will be wiping all my devices. And honestly getting rid too as I won't want to risk me contacting someone

 

[AlTheObviousAlien]

Ah definitely when I do it I will be wiping all my devices. And honestly getting rid too as I won't want to risk me contacting someone

I hope you find peace in any way