CTB time, Goodbye!

[Idiotic]

things have happened over time and now its my turn to finally CTB.

no more pills, not even a rope. those 2 options arent available anymore.
its a knife this time. don't worry guys, my research is done.
im going to be stabbing my carotid artery, my left one.
i will force the knife through where i can feel the pulse in my neck. and hopefully turn the knife while its in my neck and slice.

its currently 3am, i wont be saved, i will bleed out, and be GONE. sure, there'll be a mess, but i seriously do not have anything else to live for
i should have been dead already, so thats whats pushing me to do it NOW.

my memories will be taken with me to the afterlife and i will finally find peace.
thank you SS for your wonderful website.


im ready, and im going to do it. a little scared, but thats normal, also, fuck SI, im going to win tonight.

 

[born2win]

SN hard to get at your place?

 

[makethepainstop]

things have happened over time and now its my turn to finally CTB.

no more pills, not even a rope. those 2 options arent available anymore.
its a knife this time. don't worry guys, my research is done.
im going to be stabbing my carotid artery, my left one.
i will force the knife through where i can feel the pulse in my neck. and hopefully turn the knife while its in my neck and slice.

its currently 3am, i wont be saved, i will bleed out, and be GONE. sure, there'll be a mess, but i seriously do not have anything else to live for
i should have been dead already, so thats whats pushing me to do it NOW.

my memories will be taken with me to the afterlife and i will finally find peace.
thank you SS for your wonderful website.


im ready, and im going to do it. a little scared, but thats normal, also, fuck SI, im going to win tonight.

I am sorry you have been brought to this point. I understand your feelings I am about there also. Much love to you on your journey, if your SI kicks in that's ok too. We will be here for you.

 

[Idiotic]

logging off now to go and get the knife and head to the basement in a couple minutes.
i will make sure i die. i will die. thanks to everyone in general on this site, i hope everyone achieves their freedom!

 

[rainwillneverstop]

Sorry it has come to this point for you.
I hate to mention it but so many things can go wrong when trying with a knife, but I am sure you have thought of everything. If not, please reconsider your approach. Good luck whatever you decide to do.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

Hi please reconsider this method , it has a high rate of failure, extreme pain and panic.

And if you survive it will mess you up more, disfigure you and cause many problems .

Imo you should find a better way.

 

[Euthanza]

At the least you can take some medications to minimize the pain ...

 

[HerculePoirot]

At the least you can take some medications to minimize the pain ...

He's off line now. Hopefully in the bus.

 

[FuneralCry]

That does sound like a horrific way to leave this world to me, but I hope that you find the freedom from your suffering that you are looking for.

 

[Shivali]

 

[hush hush]

That does sound like a horrific way to leave this world to me, but I hope that you find the freedom from your suffering that you are looking for.

Sponsored by Governments, Courts and religious people who leave such options only available.

 

[MidnightDream]

Oh my, OP is certainly braver than I would ever be. I sincerely hope they've found peace, and that they didn't suffer too much :( <3

 

[Willto]

Oh dear, sounds painful. Guess you are in an awful distress. Hope you find peace whatever the outcome.