Discussion Ctb thread with Benzocaine/Cyanotic Fallout

[Jisatsu]

This is a pre-made post for when I know I'll be gone. I plan to have this post on my birthday... the day I'm supposed to turn 27.

I took benzocaine powder and oral anesthetic.
I'm taking a significant amount way more then I'd actually recommend anyone ever take... but I'm exhausted from making so many attempts and at this point I want it to be overkill.

My plan is to fast for 12 hours
Take 2mg of klonopin a hour before I take everything.
I have 4 small bottles of oral anesthetic which would come out to around 8.8g.
And I plan to take two shots of benzocaine powder mixed with vodka... which will be 25g.

So in total I'm taking 33.8g ...
I'm nervous but I can't stand to keep living and filling a role that has already served its purpose.

I'll be the first to ctb using this method on this forum and I hope with my death it helps others find peace as well.

 

[UserFromNowhere]

Was always nice reading your posts, but I could see how much you were suffering. Hopefully you're resting peacefully now.

 

[sweetdrowning]

I hope it was peaceful for you... I will miss seeing you on the forum. Rest easy

 

[dewdfish]

I've been reading your posts and you've always been incredibly helpful with methods. I hope you're successful and reach peace, Hela. Thank you for the contributions to this forum and community. Safe travels, sweetie

Also, great music taste!

 

[Xi-Xi]

Damn... Please.... Don't go.... but it's selfish of me to want you here...

 

[Riven]

i hope that you've managed to find peace now. you were a great part of this forum and i'll miss seeing you around. i wish you the best in whatever comes after this life

 

[spero_meliora]

i hope you've managed to finally find peace, hela. you were so good in trying to help everyone, and even in this thread you thought to document your method.

heartbroken to finally see this thread, really glad i got to chat with you a little beforehand hope your journey was a soft one.

 

[darksouls]

goodbye, I hope you have found your peace

 

[Paleface]

Rest in peace

 

[Baisley]

I hope that she did find peace because who knows,.she could.be hospitalized right now and saved. We really don't know at this point. If she is in severe agony or anything it's not like she could respond yet or have deleted her pre made post. But I do hope she is at peace .

 

[lanadelreyisgod223]

does anyone know if she's still alive?

 

[Forveleth]

Well, damn you. I was going to ask about putting our heads together on this method. Guess you got something working.

Seriously though, it takes a lot of nerve to try an untested method and I am impressed with your resolve. I hope you found peace.

 

[Baisley]

does anyone know if she's still alive?

I am wondering about this also. We are assuming she CTB based on this post but what if she is in a coma or something and can't respond or delete this post before it was sent. This is such a new method who knows what happened but Lord knows she could be in dire shape in a hospital but still "technically" alive. If it worked though then this is a promising method. I'm just not sure if I would try it yet without knowing more or if she is actually suffering in a hospital or in a coma.

 

[MaxStirner]

I am wondering about this also. We are assuming she CTB based on this post but what if she is in a coma or something and can't respond or delete this post before it was sent. This is such a new method who knows what happened but Lord knows she could be in dire shape in a hospital but still "technically" alive. If it worked though then this is a promising method. I'm just not sure if I would try it yet without knowing more or if she is actually suffering in a hospital or in a coma.

If no one here knew her personally, finding out her condition is going to be astronomically difficult. If it can be proven a successful method, then I suggest a new sticky resource is in order. Especially with SN coming under more legislation (potentially) in the U.S., which was why Jisatsu embarked on the benzocaine path to begin with.

 

[Baisley]

If no one here knew her personally, finding out her condition is going to be astronomically difficult. If it can be proven a successful method, then I suggest a new sticky resource is in order. Especially with SN coming under more legislation (potentially) in the U.S., which was why Jisatsu embarked on the benzocaine path to begin with.

I agree. And hopefully it did work and Jisatsu is at peace. I'd hate for her to be suffering she has suffered enough in life..

 

[woodlandcreature]

i hope you can be at peace hela. thank you for everything.

 

[Dreamwalker]

Be at peace !! Be remembered !! Thank you for this gift of discovery !!

 

[NutOrat]

Whether you're still out there or succeeded, I hope you're at peace, Hela I have to say finding this out now was devastating, you were such a kind soul, I'll never forget you.

 

[jojobanana]

rest in peace beautiful soul

 

[xXSufferingXx]

RIP.
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i don't know much about this chemical, can anyone give me the 101 on it?

 

[muu]

hi sasu friends

THIS PERSON IS NOT DECEASED!
im pretty sure.

her spotify, as attached in this very thread, has songs added to playlists as recent as 5 days ago, as seen here.

this reply is not being made to mock Jisatsu or anything that she is going through, it's simply to inform people that her method was unsuccessful and should not be replicated. i wish Jisatsu the best, but i also do not wish further harm on anybody that wishes to follow in her footsteps. thank you

 

[eggsausagerice]

her spotify, as attached in this very thread, has songs added to playlists as recent as 5 days ago, as seen here.

spoooooky spotify activity... oohh...

 

[SweetMemories]

hi sasu friends

THIS PERSON IS NOT DECEASED!
im pretty sure.

her spotify, as attached in this very thread, has songs added to playlists as recent as 5 days ago, as seen here.
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this reply is not being made to mock Jisatsu or anything that she is going through, it's simply to inform people that her method was unsuccessful and should not be replicated. i wish Jisatsu the best, but i also do not wish further harm on anybody that wishes to follow in her footsteps. thank you

couldn't she have shared the spotify with some other people around her?
If that is true, it is hopefully not a person who suffers much more now through the attempt she did..

 

[Baisley]

Thanks for the update. I am definitely not trying Benzocaine method now.

 

[DeathByBananabread]

hi sasu friends

THIS PERSON IS NOT DECEASED!

thank you for pointing this out. i wonder if they didn't take enough or if this was just a dead-end from the get go. i hope they'll be okay, or find their way, because their spotify activity seems to indicate an insanely high level of distress, & i don't subscribe to the theory that this is a friend either 'cause that just doesn't seem to be the case.
i hope she comes back at least to share her experience, insight into what happened would be incredibly valuable. this was a method me & a partner had started to prep but but we weren't planning to go anytime in the near future anyways as we're both indecisive & waiting for a right time. i always kind of figured i'd need to hang myself for the final blow anyways.

 

[doomedbynarrative]

New playlist seems to have been made three days ago. I hope you're okay Hela. Even if it failed, I hope you're okay.

 

[InTheAbyss]

Wasn't going to bother posting on this. But one of their accounts elsewhere was active for days after this was posted. Then showed no activity for a while. Then just became active again a few days ago.