Venting CTB over valentines day

[WhiskeyLulabuy]

I really want to CTB as soon as possible but over Valentine's Day seems cruel on my wife
Any thoughts??

 

[Jessamine]

I really want to CTB as soon as possible but over Valentine's Day seems cruel on my wife
Any thoughts??

I'm sorry you feel this way but yes I agree with you. All her Valentine's Day forever after will be significant as the day you died. If it was me I would wait a day or two.

 

[Suicide_vampire]

I think whatever day you ctb will be etched into your wife's memory. Be it Valentines day or just some random day.
Does she know how you are currently feeling?

 

[GoingNowhereFast]

V day is my birthday, plan to go tomorrow

 

[randomz]

I second what @Suicide_vampire said - have you tried talking to her about your feelings? Whatever her reaction you think would be, it won't be worse than her reaction if she finds out you CTBed.

V day is my birthday, plan to go tomorrow

What are your reasons for your CTB, if you don't mind me asking? Have you opened a thread in here, maybe discussing your problems might help you feel better.

 

[WhiskeyLulabuy]

QUOTE="randomz, post: 587640, member: 11793"]
I second what @Suicide_vampire said - have you tried talking to her about your feelings? Whatever her reaction you think would be, it won't be worse than her reaction if she finds out you CTBed.


What are your reasons for your CTB, if you don't mind me asking? Have you opened a thread in here, maybe discussing your problems might help you feel better.
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I second what @Suicide_vampire said - have you tried talking to her about your feelings? Whatever her reaction you think would be, it won't be worse than her reaction if she finds out you CTBed.


What are your reasons for your CTB, if you don't mind me asking? Have you opened a thread in here, maybe discussing your problems might help you feel better.

I'm at the stage where life has no meaning or point she will be better off without me

V day is my birthday, plan to go tomorrow

How are you going to do it?

 

[Suicide_vampire]

While i support your choice to ctb, it's sometimes better to not leave anything unsaid. Maybe talk with her and let her know how you feel.
Or talk to us tell us what's going on with you, what has brought you to this point.

 

[Mr2005]

On Valentines specifically just seems needlessly cruel and totally unnecessary

 

[GoingNowhereFast]

If u care about how your wife feels, why do it?

 

[WhiskeyLulabuy]

While i support your choice to ctb, it's sometimes better to not leave anything unsaid. Maybe talk with her and let her know how you feel.
Or talk to us tell us what's going on with you, what has brought you to this point.

It's just an a culmination of a shitty life just want it to end now

 

[waterbottleman]

I agree with what others are saying, I wouldnt ctb on Valentine's Day. It will be a painful reminder for your wife for the rest of her life to the point that every advertisement, every mere mention or hint of Valentine's Day will remind her of your death and trigger very horrible feelings.

I used to have a boss who's twin brother died on her birthday. Celebrating birthdays was typical at the office but we never celebrated my bosses birthday, never even said happy birthday to her cause we knew it would just remind her of her brothers death.

That aside, i don't know your circumstances and why you feel like your life is pointless but man I'm envious of you for having a wife and having a woman care and love you. I've been alive for 29 years and have never had a single woman care about and love me (I'd be happy if a woman was even attracted to me and acknowledged my humanity) you have no idea how lucky you are to have a wife who loves you and cares about you.

Also I highly doubt she'll be better off without you, I bet she doesn't feel that way at all.

I really think you should reconsider, get help, talk to your wife about your feelings, etc.

I don't mean to disrespect you and what you're going through in anyway, but idk I just think having a loving wife is something to be enormously grateful for and makes life worth living. I'd be happy living in a cardboard box if I had a woman in my life who loved and treasured me.

 

[GoingNowhereFast]

I second what @Suicide_vampire said - have you tried talking to her about your feelings? Whatever her reaction you think would be, it won't be worse than her reaction if she finds out you CTBed.


What are your reasons for your CTB, if you don't mind me asking? Have you opened a thread in here, maybe discussing your problems might help you feel better.

I'm just tired of existing. I'm supposed to be trying to find a job but I know that when I find one I will just feel like killing myself even more

 

[Suicide_vampire]

It's just an a culmination of a shitty life just want it to end now

Sometimes we can get trapped in our own dark thoughts and we can't see past them when I do it, I call going down the rabbit hole. It's easier to keep going in that direction than to turn around and look at things.
Maybe just try in here to talk about what's shitty in your life. What has brought you to this point if you are able to. It's just the offer is there in an open, non-judgemental safe space.

 

[ctbUniquectb]

On Valentines specifically just seems needlessly cruel and totally unnecessary

kinda tacky too. I tied up all my loose ends this week, but remembered the holiday and am delaying

If you're the type to worry about posthumous slander, then remember that greasing yourself on Valentine's WILL get you bashed for doing it from sexual frustration, whether or not that's the case.

 

[randomz]

I'm just tired of existing. I'm supposed to be trying to find a job but I know that when I find one I will just feel like killing myself even more

Not neccesseraily, having a good job that doesn't stress you out and still gives you enouogh money to support your lifestyle can have a great effect on your mental health and desire to live. I know from experience - I've had such jobs.

I'm at the stage where life has no meaning or point she will be better off without me

I think she can say that better than you. We tend to be too harsh on ourselves when we have a deppressive episode, but don't forget that if she is still with you, then she cares about you and sees in you what you yourself can not.

 

[Ghost2211]

V day is my birthday, plan to go tomorrow

I feel you. it's my birthday too, and first V day after ex left. I would go on v day, but my meto isn't here yet.

 

[Jean4]

My opinion. If you are ready, you are ready and a holiday won't matter. Also, if your wife loves you, she isn't going to care what day it is.

My partner CTB December 8. He wasn't there for Christmas and what not. It didn't matter if he CTB December 8 or Christmas Day.

I found Valentine Day a silly holiday. One needs to be reminded to tell someone you love them? Doesn't seem much of a relationship if you need to be reminded.

 

[Lonely Music]

Valentine's day is no different than any other day

 

[Ghost2211]

My opinion. If you are ready, you are ready and a holiday won't matter. Also, if your wife loves you, she isn't going to care what day it is.

My partner CTB December 8. He wasn't there for Christmas and what not. It didn't matter if he CTB December 8 or Christmas Day.

I found Valentine Day a silly holiday. One needs to be reminded to tell someone you love them? Doesn't seem much of a relationship if you need to be reminded.

That's exactly how my grandma feels about Mother's Day. She says every day should be Mother's Day.

 

[TAW122]

I don't want to say whether it is a good day or not, and I agree with @Jean4 here, if you are "ready" then it wouldn't matter whatever else is going on, be it Valentine's Day, Christmas Day, Easter, St. Patrick's Day, etc. or whatever day or time of importance you hold. For me, while I'm not 100% ready yet (even though I've made up my mind) and also had planned to do a few things before checking out, I know that if and when my time comes, then I will go through with it. I had planned to go in the 2nd half of 2020 and don't plan to see it out in the long term. I'm just tired of living (along with a laundry list of other reasons - some personal, some external, and philosophical).

As for how your wife reacts, she will be sad regardless of when/where/how you pass, so I would only suggest the best you can do is ease her pain and try to make the last moments as peaceful as possible. I wish you peace in whatever you choose to do.

 

[one4all]

To me it is just another made up holiday for companies to make $$$$$$ off of sales