Ctb or catch the psych ward

[Fadingfast]

My dreams are even depressing... I can't even catch a break from my depressing existence in sleep. If I dont get the nerve to jump by next week Wednesday my family will have me commited to the psych ward again. I screwed up my only chance at a lasting relationship. I was in the psych ward for a couple months and when I came out my partner was married to someone else. I can not possibly continue this lonesome existence. All I do all day is tell myself to end it. The emotional pain has over taken. The schizophrenic part of my brain has merged with my bipolar and I can't take it anymore. Please, let me have the courage to jump. There's no other way for me.

 

[Roberto]

Do you take medication? If it were me, I would go to the psych yard. Far enough from this world.

 

[Jean Améry]

I'm sorry you're in so much misery. It seems your family is putting a lot of pressure on you. I can't tell you whether CTB would be preferable to life on a psych ward. I was on one for about 4 months in total for depression (on a voluntary basis): it taught me psychiatry is not based on science and if it helps it's mainly through social means. Of course I don't know what your experiences were.

The best of luck with whatever you decide.

 

[Fadingfast]

I've been medicated for years and nothing gets easier. If anything it's gotten worse. Of I go to the psych ward I'll come back the same. Im such a ftequent flyer that the staff has given me a nick name... They know me as Pussnboots :( so embarassing.

 

[Halo13]

My dreams are even depressing... I can't even catch a break from my depressing existence in sleep. If I dont get the nerve to jump by next week Wednesday my family will have me commited to the psych ward again. I screwed up my only chance at a lasting relationship. I was in the psych ward for a couple months and when I came out my partner was married to someone else. I can not possibly continue this lonesome existence. All I do all day is tell myself to end it. The emotional pain has over taken. The schizophrenic part of my brain has merged with my bipolar and I can't take it anymore. Please, let me have the courage to jump. There's no other way for me.

I hope I don't sound rude or offensive but you were in the psych ward for two months and your partner married someone else?? That doesn't sound like a person who is worth caring about. Someone who loves and truly cares doesn't just marry someone else in a few weeks. That is not unconditional love on their part and would not last as a relationship. A good relationship is not conditional. Sounds like you're much better off without them.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain but nobody deserves to be in a fair weather relationship. You deserve MUCH better than that, not settling for less!

 

[Mogley26]

My dreams are even depressing... I can't even catch a break from my depressing existence in sleep. If I dont get the nerve to jump by next week Wednesday my family will have me commited to the psych ward again. I screwed up my only chance at a lasting relationship. I was in the psych ward for a couple months and when I came out my partner was married to someone else. I can not possibly continue this lonesome existence. All I do all day is tell myself to end it. The emotional pain has over taken. The schizophrenic part of my brain has merged with my bipolar and I can't take it anymore. Please, let me have the courage to jump. There's no other way for me.

Really? Jumping is the only way? Do you have a place to jump from?

 

[Fadingfast]

Fuck it Im gonna drive to Niagara Falls. No high bridges here in Georgia.
Opps didn't mean to drop the f bomb just frustrated. The drives less than a day and I've seen it before.