Ctb on monday

[Sphinxi]

I am full of trepidation, but I am also very excited. I have been unable to stop shaking in anticipation all day. I am going to get drunk and take 5x my normal dosage of seroquel in order to overcome si. I will ride a train to the station near the bridge, walk up to it, and jump off.

I feel so happy about it. I am excited for my life to end in a way that feels controlling and dramatic. I have finished all of my notes. In under 48 hours, I won't have to care about anything anymore. I will not be bothered by my scars, by the pain of looking others in the eye, or by the feeling of buildings towering over me. I am genuinely excited to end my life

 

[Realog11]

I am full of trepidation, but I am also very excited. I have been unable to stop shaking in anticipation all day. I am going to get drunk and take 5x my normal dosage of seroquel in order to overcome si. I will ride a train to the station near the bridge, walk up to it, and jump off.

I feel so happy about it. I am excited for my life to end in a way that feels controlling and dramatic. I have finished all of my notes. In under 48 hours, I won't have to care about anything anymore. I will not be bothered by my scars, by the pain of looking others in the eye, or by the feeling of buildings towering over me. I am genuinely excited to end my life

Same I'm catching the bus today or tomorrow

 

[metfan647]

How high is this bridge?

 

[Sphinxi]

How high is this bridge?

Over 200 feet overlooking a major river

 

[amor.dor]

I'll miss your posts. I hope you get what you want in a peaceful way, and from the height you described, it should be instant. Take care — no need to rush.

 

[somewhatdeadly]

I hope you find peace.

 

[Xi-Xi]

If you are dead set on this, good luck.

 

[kufajoy]

Good luck. Hope you find peace

 

[dalemar]

Good luck, I hope you find your well deserved peace.
I hope you have a swift journey!

 

[darksouls]

good luck,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[Alexandra_]

Have a safe journey, you are a very brave person. I dream of the same

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[Catscratch]

I wish all the best for you I hope you will find out the peace you are looking for

 

[tiredcatboy]

Good luck and I hope you find peace. ♡

 

[Sphinxi]

Thank you for all of the kind words

Update: today, my university police department called a welfare check on me. I was hospitalized, and spent about 8 hours in a hospital waiting for a 5 minute conversation with a psychiatrist, who dismissed me. The call with the psychiatrist was over zoom, so I was able to hide my self harm scars, and lie to him about my plans to ctb