CTB before life gets worse?

[RedFruit]

Not sure how else to say this besides:
Do you think you should CTB before life gets even worse? Lately my life has been feeling stagnant. Not too positive but not too negative. It's been worse. But I don't want it to get worse again. I know eventually I'll have another major depressive episode and have this aching pain in my chest that will make me want to stab my heart repeatedly. Maybe CTB before that will be easier? Does anyone else think like this?

 

[fedup1982]

CTB is so fucking hard, I dont know how anyone does it. It'll be easier to just live, even considering i will one day have to die of something anyway

 

[DISAppearr]

Yes. I have to go quickly. As soon as possible. I'm tired. It would be so nice if I just disappear. I won't have to struggle anymore.