CTB and COVID-19

[FuneralGrey]

I don't know if I believe in divine interference, but there were so many of my criteria for CTB happening at once that it felt like a sign that tomorrow was the day. I was feeling calm and confident and right on schedule for preparations and stuff but... I tested positive for COVID-19 today.

Do I still go through with it?

I always worry about first responders. I was still debating home vs. outside. At home, they can tell EMS I'm positive so whoever has to come deal with me takes the right precautions. Outside, when I'm found, I don't know if responders will use the protection they need to stay safe. If I'm unsuccesful, I feel like being on life support (again) and COVID-positive will increase the chances that I get really sick and die. At the same time, I don't want to increase the risk to whoever has to treat me.

My CTB is going to be selfish – I know that and I'm okay with it – but I don't want to get anyone else sick. Thoughts?

Part of me feels like it's better to wait it out but then envisioning ten more days of being alive, while possible, feels so deeply uncomfortable.

 

[theboy]

you could leave a note or let your family know that you have been infected

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Well, a week or so isn't that long, relative to how long you've already lived. To me it wouldn't be that big of a deal. If I had concerns about infecting others, maybe I'd wear a mask if it didn't interfere with my method, and maybe stick a sign up, or place a note on my chest indicating my positivity for Cov-19. Don't first responders pretty much take precautions regularly now?

 

[whitefeather]

I don't know if I believe in divine interference, but there were so many of my criteria for CTB happening at once that it felt like a sign that tomorrow was the day. I was feeling calm and confident and right on schedule for preparations and stuff but... I tested positive for COVID-19 today.

Do I still go through with it?

I always worry about first responders. I was still debating home vs. outside. At home, they can tell EMS I'm positive so whoever has to come deal with me takes the right precautions. Outside, when I'm found, I don't know if responders will use the protection they need to stay safe. If I'm unsuccesful, I feel like being on life support (again) and COVID-positive will increase the chances that I get really sick and die. At the same time, I don't want to increase the risk to whoever has to treat me.

My CTB is going to be selfish – I know that and I'm okay with it – but I don't want to get anyone else sick. Thoughts?

Part of me feels like it's better to wait it out but then envisioning ten more days of being alive, while possible, feels so deeply uncomfortable

How are you doing now ?