Story cried twice today

[ssaaahmo]

so done
so done
can't do this anymore
i miss my siblings
my mom weighed me today and made me have extra calories
i can't gain more i just can't
the guilt is adding up
i want to leave so bad but i feel like i NEED to stay for all the people who say they need ME
confused
don't know what to do

 

[Living sucks]

i miss my siblings

your siblings also miss their siblings. Don't give them another one to miss.

 

[ssaaahmo]

I know, that's why I'm still here, mostly. It just huts so bad.
I just can't figure out how to keep living when three of them are already dead.

 

[Living sucks]

There are still 4 alive. Find the glass half full instead of empty. You can't change the fact that three of them have already passed away, but you can influence the lives of the four that are still alive.

 

[ssaaahmo]

I know that. Two of them are a lot younger and we don't see each other much and the other two just enable my parents' behavior so I don't trust them anymore. We get along fine but I don't want them in my life right now.
i appreciate your encouragement

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I hear your hurt and send compassion.

I'm also curious, how old are you that your mom has the right to weigh you and make you eat extra calories?

 

[Arrow]

my mom weighed me today and made me have extra calories
i can't gain more i just can't

is this because you are very underweight or something?