Venting Crashing out but it's okay!! (not)

[hellstar_paradox]

I'm so fucking stressed I'm already ungodly fucking depressed and lonely and stressed about my own life but now a friend (who might have become an fp for me, still figuring that out) is going through some bad shit and I literally can't do anything to help them and I'm sick to my stomach worrying about them and they're literally the only person I have to talk about my emotions and depression with!!! So I'm fucking cooked!!!!! It also feels bad that they have a lot of irl support now so I'm stuck waiting for them to respond because I'm genuinely worried for their safety when they could just be too busy talk with the irl people or they could just be figuring things out or they could have done something to hurt themselves and been hurt by someone else and I'll never get to talk to them again or never even find out about it in the first place. I know these thoughts are super selfish but that's why I'm putting them here instead of somewhere else (not like I have any other options...lol). It's okay to be in pain when some you care about is in pain right? It's okay to seek support for your own pain while still supporting the other person right? I'd say yes if it was someone else asking these things but for me it just feels like I'm being selfish, even though it's not like I'm diverting support from they by posting this here instead of venting to a mutual friend or something.

 

[toyu]

Don't think that's selfish at all, just you having empathy. I know you feel like you can't do much to help them, but you just being there and doing your best is more than enough, and I'm sure they appreciate it.

Hope everything turns out well.