Discussion Courage

[mlcs]

What would you do if you had to die within 24 hours or otherwise you will live until an old age, but all the peaceful or partly peaceful methods (SN, CO, nitrogen...) were unavailable and only choice to escape would be something violent like jumping from height or under the train? Would you have guts to do it?

 

[whs]

Yes definitely, I can't survive that long and honestly I'd want to die pretty rather than old and grumpy

 

[dory]

100% a violent death is better than living through a world full of violence until old age

 

[FuneralCry]

Not everyone is able to easily access jumping/train locations anyway, suicide is just too difficult in this world and the inaccessability of suicide has always kept me trapped here enduring the same dreadful existence. And there is also the risk of a method somehow failing as well and leading to more suffering, those who ctb by a more brutal methods certainly were very courageous, they must had been so determined. To answer the question, I don't even know, realistically I doubt I would because of access first of all and jumping and train are just terrifying methods.

 

[12_Years_Late]

Yes; in fact, lying under a train is my backup method.

 

[mlcs]

Not everyone is able to easily access jumping/train locations anyway, suicide is just too difficult in this world and the inaccessability of suicide has always kept me trapped here enduring the same dreadful existence. And there is also the risk of a method somehow failing as well and leading to more suffering, those who ctb by a more brutal methods certainly were very courageous, they must had been so determined. To answer the question, I don't even know, realistically I doubt I would because of access first of all and jumping and train are just terrifying methods.

In 24 hours it's possible to find a suitable location or impulsively try anything similar. There was one guy in my city who killed a child and upon realisation what he did ran to the highway, jumped under the truck and died.

I know all of that is violent, risky and brutal, but a lot of us like myself are trapped waking up every day in misery waiting to try something more peaceful like SN or hanging. Sometimes I just get the urge to drive to the bridge and jump or decapitate myself with a train.

I feel devastated, limited and lost in all of this. I have a car. I have some semi-peaceful and violent options on the other side. I just feel so lost that I don't know where to start, what to try and how to make sure I'll have other option ready if the first one fails. Many others are much more limited than I am. The only thing I know for sure is that I have to kill myself. I'm just overwhelmed by this situation where I have a lot of options but also feel incapable of doing it right or beating SI in violent ones. Sometimes I wish something just pushes me to violently ending it immediately, because I got lost and confused in all of the calculations.