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I have what Boddibo describes: the physical sensations and mental state, including aphantasia. This all stems from (C)PTSD, and I don't have flashbacks as much. I've also been diagnosed with anxiety and panic disorder.
@MissAbyss C-PTSD here too. That's interesting that your aphantasia comes from the trauma too. Didn't know it was linked thanks for sharing that with me. And i'm sorry you have to go through it.
@boddibo does your therapist give you medication for the anxiety perchance?
 
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I genuienly like when you produce music like this one, U. A.

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@MissAbyss C-PTSD here too. That's interesting that your aphantasia comes from the trauma too. Didn't know it was linked thanks for sharing that with me. And i'm sorry you have to go through it.
ohhh, i haven't fully understood that part first on Miss A's post, is aphantasia linked to trauma? I wasn't aware! sending hugs to both of you

@boddibo does your therapist give you medication for the anxiety perchance?
i don't see one anymore, she was in fact very freudian and i can't deal with that shit
it's my GP who prescrbes me what I need
 
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And finding a new (without freud bullshit fuck him) therapist isn't in the cards?
 
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Ah, I have many more diagnoses, I'm a complete cluster C f*ck with Post-Acute Withdrawal Syndrome on top. lol. Agoraphobia is the biggest b!tch to conquer though. I'm also sorry you both have to go through that.
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thanks @boddibo , @gunmetalblue11. heavenly spongebob is a worthy result
 
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I studied psychology for many years on my own including various treatment methods that I apply to myself. The psychiatrists and psychologists I saw honestly admitted they could no longer treat me because I knew too much. Therefore, the chance of finding another compatible one is slim. Méh, I don't like them anyways...
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Post-Acute Withdrawal Syndrome on top. lol. Agoraphobia is the biggest b!tch to conquer though. I'm also sorry you both have to go through that.
PAWS is horrid. I knew someone who had it, i'm very sorry.
I'm also agoraphobic actually, it's nice to know i'm not alone on that!
time consuming to find a new one, my country likes freud a bit too much lol, and it's not cheap at all. but i'd like see one doing cognitive behavioral therapy
I'm sorry about that. That sucks. Maybe in the near future, or maybe online?
edit: he did say i probably suffer from prolonged grief disorder, i agree, but that's not all there is about me for sure
Yeah so it's possible you just have DP and panic attacks. It could be silent flashbacks, but that doesn't technically have to be PTSD, there are like you said other criteria for it. Could be a plain old trauma reponse.
 
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back in the land of the "living"
 
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unfortunately, i'm still fucking out of my mind rn but hey i'm here
 
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