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R. A.

R. A.

If I must die, do not let them say I did not live.
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Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
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I'm so, so, so sorry @EternalShore they have a lot of songs with religious-sounding titles, and I got that one confused with another. Here, I found the one I meant and listened to it all the way through before posting it. It only has one kinda bad word, but overall is very PG, I promise.
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this one's nicer! :) thank you, The Morning star~ ^_^ and thank you for checking this ahead of time too~ ^_^
 
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updated my profile picture :)
 
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hey @qewpie you're still here
 
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yeah! nothing about how my body's feeling has changed so the hope is gone and my mind's been going into debt. i need something to happen for me soon or else I've gotta ctb bc i can't take this anymore
 
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If I must die, do not let them say I did not live.
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yeah! nothing about how my body's feeling has changed so the hope is gone and my mind's been going into debt. i need something to happen for me soon or else I've gotta ctb bc i can't take this anymore
this may be of no concern to you but cases have remitted after years...look up the youtuber PhysicsGirl
 
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this may be of no concern to you but cases have remitted after years...look up the youtuber PhysicsGirl
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oh I know about PhysicsGirl but I don't have anywhere near her level of healthcare access or her endurance and patience…and she's been declining recently apparently too :( so much luck is involved in recovery from this hell. and LDN gave me a balance disorder so i don't feel great about my chances
 
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yeah...she has a caregiver network and probably lot of money and it took her that long to get to that point of improvement...she apparently did air travel in the summer, i havent seen anything since but maybe that caused a setback...so sorry LDN did that; it's usually an effective or at least safe thing to try :/
 
qewpie

qewpie

body so broken
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yeah...she has a caregiver network and probably lot of money and it took her that long to get to that point of improvement...she apparently did air travel in the summer, i havent seen anything since but maybe that caused a setback...so sorry LDN did that; it's usually an effective or at least safe thing to try :/
her father died so I think the stress of that contributed to the current decline. and she also broke her wrist recently too. it's really tragic. when i was healthy and saw her update video where she was doing better i told a friend "i could never lay in bed for that long i would rather die" so i guess i manifested this for me!!! when my illness just started i thought i could just rest up. but now it's so torturous i can't rest. yeah.

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