Hello again SS family,
My CTB time is going to be very soon. I've learned to put my happiness first and that means me departing from this life. This is the only way that I'll truly be free. I've created memories for my husband and children to have. This isn't their fault that I've been tired for a long time. My self esteem and confidence are gone, the shame, regret and guilt of my poor past decisions is eating me non stop, the trauma from past sexual, physical and mental abuse is still present. I've failed at everything. I've finished everything I wanted to do in this life and I set the bar high for my children to follow my work ethic and education path, I dropped the ball in other areas with them due to my poor decisions. I will be making a final goodbye post on here soon. Just wanted to say thanks to everyone for being supportive on here.
My CTB time is going to be very soon. I've learned to put my happiness first and that means me departing from this life. This is the only way that I'll truly be free. I've created memories for my husband and children to have. This isn't their fault that I've been tired for a long time. My self esteem and confidence are gone, the shame, regret and guilt of my poor past decisions is eating me non stop, the trauma from past sexual, physical and mental abuse is still present. I've failed at everything. I've finished everything I wanted to do in this life and I set the bar high for my children to follow my work ethic and education path, I dropped the ball in other areas with them due to my poor decisions. I will be making a final goodbye post on here soon. Just wanted to say thanks to everyone for being supportive on here.
