I tried, but I couldn't do it. I can't live right, and I can't die right. I'm so sorry to the people I've brought into my life, especially my children. They don't deserve this.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 44,964
Suicide really is so difficult. If it was easier to leave I would already be gone. I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
LostAllHope88
Member
- Dec 21, 2021
- 62
I'm sorry you feel like you failed…but maybe it just isn't the right time for you yet. You have children? Maybe your children are reason enough to stay for now. I think if I had any children of my own I wouldn't be able to go through with it either. Despite all the pain I still have a lot of love left in me.
Don't be too hard on yourself and take things one day at a time. Sending love your way.
Don't be too hard on yourself and take things one day at a time. Sending love your way.
I do have children, I have immense guilt about the type of father I've been. I'm not abusive or mean, I have just been so tied up in my own problems that I haven't been the type of dad I wish they had. The guilt is overwhelming.
Foresight
Enlightened
- Jun 14, 2019
- 1,393
Your children will find room for forgiveness when they're old enough to understand adult life. All we can do is the best we can. Life can be draining on anyone.
LostAllHope88
Member
- Dec 21, 2021
- 62
It's never too late to start! My mother actually decided to CTB in September and I believe it was for similar reasons. She always carried so much guilt, and yet none of us held it against her that she had to work full-time for a living. She tried her best in this unfair world and that was more than a lot of people anyway.
Some parents abandon their children simply because they don't want them. At least you stuck around, so give yourself some credit
nowayout*
Member
- Dec 17, 2021
- 93
I feel this seems like I can't do anything right anymore and I also can't figured out the best time to end it. At the same time I don't want to leave my husband or my daughter. But I know I have to go for some reason I just can't. It feels like things just keep coming up.
Yes having children and wanting to die is awful. I'm the same. However remember when you planned having children you couldn't see into the future. You planned having them whilst healthy and could nor have forseen the future.
