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idiotstillwantstodie

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Nov 11, 2021
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A part of me would just like to make hell out of peoples lives. But then there is the empathy, and the shame, which i both have quite a lot. Its just that the pro-social emotions feel just as empty and unfulfilling as the antisocial ones. I cant really help anyone, no one really can, because its the system itself that is faulty and nobody has the power to change that.

The whole of it feels just.. bitter. And thats it. Its like these different emotions im capable of nullify the potential pleasure that could be achieved from each other.

I hate it. There is no pleasure in taking, no pleasure in giving. No pleasure in hurting others, no pleasure in trying to help them. What the fuck is wrong with me?
 
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Lost Magic

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May 5, 2020
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A part of me would just like to make hell out of peoples lives. But then there is the empathy, and the shame, which i both have quite a lot. Its just that the pro-social emotions feel just as empty and unfulfilling as the antisocial ones. I cant really help anyone, no one really can, because its the system itself that is faulty and nobody has the power to change that.

The whole of it feels just.. bitter. And thats it. Its like these different emotions im capable of nullify the potential pleasure that could be achieved from each other.

I hate it. There is no pleasure in taking, no pleasure in giving. No pleasure in hurting others, no pleasure in trying to help them. What the fuck is wrong with me?
You want to make hell out of peoples lives? Go and play GTA online lol You can gun somebody down with a helicopter and steal their money with no repercussions. Well, they may try and kill you afterwards but I think you get the point here.
 
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idiotstillwantstodie

Student
Nov 11, 2021
168
There are a lot of easy ways to hurt and slow down other people. Many of them are even legal. Its very hard to actually help them, in a way that ends up mattering to them.

So its quite understandable why most people take the easy road in this matter and turn into assholes.
 
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Lost Magic

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May 5, 2020
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There are a lot of easy ways to hurt and slow down other people. Many of them are even legal. Its very hard to actually help them, in a way that ends up mattering to them.

So its quite understandable why most people take the easy road in this matter and turn into assholes.
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ShttyChicken

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Sep 15, 2020
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A part of me would just like to make hell out of peoples lives. But then there is the empathy, and the shame, which i both have quite a lot. Its just that the pro-social emotions feel just as empty and unfulfilling as the antisocial ones. I cant really help anyone, no one really can, because its the system itself that is faulty and nobody has the power to change that.

The whole of it feels just.. bitter. And thats it. Its like these different emotions im capable of nullify the potential pleasure that could be achieved from each other.

I hate it. There is no pleasure in taking, no pleasure in giving. No pleasure in hurting others, no pleasure in trying to help them. What the fuck is wrong with me?
I feel exactly the same way. I know I am programmed, partly by nature and partly by society. I feel what I should feel as a human being and as a socialized individual. Which are sometimes mutually exclusive. These emotions are empty from this perspective, as if they are not really mine.
 
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