Method Considering available options & diabetes rant

[Sweet Tart]

I have the house to myself for a week but no reliable way to ctb.

I don't want to be here when my family returns. I've thought a lot about insulin OD (along with benzos to ensure I am not awake for what is happening to my body). I thought this would be a clearcut way to ctb but the more I read in old posts, the more iffy it seems. I don't want to risk waking up with brain damage.

Type 1 diabetes is so fucking irritating. Every minute of every day, I have to consider my blood sugar and what I need in order to keep my body running and avoid emergencies... yet it's apparently unreliable for ctb. I can either OD on insulin and risk brain damage or stop taking insulin and incur increasing damage to all vital organs but a death that would likely take months. How can the body at once be so fragile yet so resilient?

I'm researching 1,4 bdo but it looks difficult to obtain at this time. Any experience with sourcing this is greatly appreciated (in a PM). SN seems unrealistic due to cost.

 

[Lulzacruel]

insulin OD is not reliable, plus its also really detectable to the nurses if its an intentional OD as many people with muchansen syndrome try to use it to get diagnosed with type 1.

i can kind of relate to you since I had H. Pylori induced reactive hypoglycemia that was so bad that putting me in any body of water would cool my body down so much that i was hyperventilating. i also have a history of type 2 diabetes on my father's side.

still, type 1 seems way worse to live with and i wish that you can find your way around this issue, CTB or not. let me guess, you live in the USA where insulin is more expensive than gold?

 

[Sweet Tart]

insulin OD is not reliable, plus its also really detectable to the nurses if its an intentional OD as many people with muchansen syndrome try to use it to get diagnosed with type 1.

i can kind of relate to you since I had H. Pylori induced reactive hypoglycemia that was so bad that putting me in any body of water would cool my body down so much that i was hyperventilating. i also have a history of type 2 diabetes on my father's side.

still, type 1 seems way worse to live with and i wish that you can find your way around this issue, CTB or not. let me guess, you live in the USA where insulin is more expensive than gold?

I'm sorry about having H. Pylori. I didn't know it caused hypoglycemia but I heard about it from a friend with lupus.

Yes, I live in the USA and fortunately have Medicaid, so I don't pay for insulin. Even so, in recent years, the pharmacy has gotten very tight with filling prescriptions and the thought of running out is always in the back of my mind. Maintaining prescriptions on a monthly basis is ridiculously stressful, considering Type 1 never goes away, so this monthly routine will go on for as long as I do. I should try to get my prescriptions every 90 days, but that would require my doctors writing prescriptions correctly, which doesn't always happen.

I didn't know that non-diabetics with Munchausen syndrome try to use insulin to get diagnosed with Type 1! That is wild. Also misguided, as an undiagnosed Type 1 would have high glucose, not low glucose. Also, Type 1 is diagnosed with labs that look at factors related to the body's insulin-production mechanism, not current blood glucose level. I'm pretty fascinated by Munchausen syndrome, tho it has nothing to do with why I'm here or what I wanted help with, lol.

 

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I'm researching 1,4 bdo

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