Venting Confused.

[FauxEmotions]

So, I don't really know how to express my point of this so I'll just write it out... thanks for your patience.

I'm just in this crazy weird spot where, I'm not sad/depressed I'm just over this existence. Like, I'm content with where my life has gone, the experiences I've had and I'm not impressed/in awe of the world anymore. I want to see what comes next or rest forever. This definitely seems like there's something "wrong" going on with my wiring but I'm not sad... I guess empty? But only feel that way because I feel this existence has nothing left to offer me nor do I to offer it. I've worn out my welcome. I feel myself getting closer and closer to the edge but I'm still far too much a coward to do more than making myself pass out from partial hanging (I don't fully anchor the end of the rope). It's comforting to know that I could end it whenever and that oddly keeps me alive.

 

[Soul]

You're saying things that sound *so* familiar - thank you for that. Personally I still get excited about the world (blame it on the Stones), but I'm not sorry to be leaving, not depressed, and curious about what comes next (or not).

Pleased to meet you. 8]

 

[FauxEmotions]

You're very welcome and I'm glad to discover I'm not alone in this way of thinking. I started to think, not that I didn't belong here, but that I'm not quite on the same level in that, day to day isn't a struggle to be happy/survive. I'm just done. Drained. Wiped out.

Pleased to meet you as well. Hope you are having a great day.