HellinHeaven
seeking for salvation
- Jan 12, 2019
- 63
Did you have your father growing up?
yes, but I had never a deep contact to him (exect in early childhood). He wasn't emotional accessible for me and I never made a profund talk to him. He got a severe disease which handicaped him and I was so overchallenged (I was about five) I tried with force to replace him, because he was weak. My mother was leading the family and she tried to tame me with attachment therapy, that means she lay on me with force, until I got quiet and made no noise. My dad was passive, as mostly in his life. I despised him many years, but meanwhile I understand that this was all he learned from his das and this was his way of coping with life for him. He was never a male paragon for me.