Venting Conflicting feelings in note-writing

[PlutonianRooster]

On one hand: a large part of my suffering was preventable. My death as well, if I ever manage to go through with it. I have no relief for the pain of knowing that; it just boils up inside, day after day. I wish I could at least honestly express that upon my death, and get even the slightest sense of relief or 'justice' (not the right word, but the closest I can think of).

On the other hand: I feel bad at the idea of spreading pain and guilt. If there is one thing I wish I could convince people to do, after all, it's to choose compassion wherever it's possible.

I don't know which side will win.

 

[OhWellDerp321]

Be careful if you write a note. If your attempt fails, you may end up hurting other's feelings. You may have to face those people again.

I used to think I would write this big note to get everything off my chest. But then I realized that wasn't smart. If I wrote that note and failed, it would have been awkward to deal with those same people afterwards.

So if I write a note it would be only for my possessions and who to pass them onto.