Venting Compulsory Military service

[pone]

So, i've been at the air force for 8 months already, i´ve been bottling up huge amounts of stress, superiors abuse and harassment, slave like working hours (80-100 hours), random parades participation after 24+ hours of work. and now i just can't deal with it anymore, not so long ago, about 3 months ago, the battalion sent me to guard another post, it also changed my team completely wich is normal, but i got put in a horrible post, with shitty teamates who got together to harass me on a daily basis, it's getting harder to deal with it, and my brigade simply doesn't care about soldiers, so i don't have any kind of support whatsoever at work wich is horrible to say the least, also, because of the long work hours i lost some friendships, now i only have one friend wich is busy studying, i feel completely lonely all the time, with no time whatsoever to do anything i enjoy, not even study, and this routine has been going for 8 months nonstop, only getting worse...

my bad habits came back with all this stress, i have no time for myself, i cant even try to go to uni because im serving atm, i just feel so hopeless, so all my hard work trying to recover last year amounted to nothing at all, i still have some hope but its getitng harder and harder to deal with this kind of life on a daily basis.

 

[Redacted24]

Sorry to hear about your difficult time. I'm sure that there are lots of others in the same situation because being forced to do a job you don't want sounds terrible.

You've done 8 months already, how much longer do they require before they release you to your freedom again?

Maybe start an internal countdown for "months to go" and find a way to reward yourself in some way when you've completed each one? Or some other way to help you mark the time?

Wishing you strength to get through!

 

[pone]

Sorry to hear about your difficult time. I'm sure that there are lots of others in the same situation because being forced to do a job you don't want sounds terrible.

You've done 8 months already, how much longer do they require before they release you to your freedom again?

Maybe start an internal countdown for "months to go" and find a way to reward yourself in some way when you've completed each one? Or some other way to help you mark the time?

Wishing you strength to get through!

Thank you for your kind words, it's 1 year of mandatory service, so 4 months left, i can quit in mid july though, never thought about rewarding myself in this way, ill try it!

im couting my days off, only 76 days left...

ill try to do my best until this hellhole ends, just a little more.

 

[Redacted24]

You can do this! Just get through one day at a time and keep believing in yourself.

Yeah it's really bad, but that doesn't mean that you're doing anything wrong. Quite possibly the people around you are really insecure and see you as a possible threat.

Keep counting the days and then all this will be behind you!

 

[RW__Asher23]

I am a USA Airforce Veteran. Honorably discharged in 1972. Viet Nam vet and proud of the time I spent in service to my country. I felt the same at times when I was just starting out. It was difficult. But Military is NOT meant to be easy. I see you are here and that is good to have outlet and vent and get some support. It helps. I had friends at home I could call but in my day we had no internet like you know now. We sent tapes home and letters. Sometimes a quick call. But I think you are doing a good thing now. Know there is another vet besides your friend there who cares and is proud of you trying to do what you can in horrible conditions at times. Good luck and keep working at counting down those days. That is what we did in the war. counting those days to get home. Alive. Wish you the very best journey in life you can get and the safest one too no matter how it ends you did it you tried and no one can take that away from you. Peace.