Resource Comprehensive Medical records from SN attempt

[Dante_]

Posting on behalf of @razor543. Here are medical notes which some may find helpful. Please engage in discussion respectfully and direct all questions toward them.

 

[Dante_]

 

[Leyna]

Interesting, thanks for sharing

 

[fallingtopieces]

i'm srry you had to endure this razor543. thank you for sharing this.

 

[Upon a hanging Body]

Reading other peoples medical records especially suicide attempt are always hard reads .

 

[sweetcreep]

thank you to razor543 for sharing this with us.

 

[razor543]

Reading other peoples medical records especially suicide attempt are always hard reads .

It's hard reading back on it. It sometimes doesn't even feel real, like did I really go through that

 

[strawberry931]

I'm sorry you had to go through this.
How long after you ingested the SN did you get to the hospital? It sounds like if you just had another hour or so that you wouldn't be here talking about this. It says you were conscious when you arrived. Would you be willing to detail any pain you might have been experiencing?

 

[razor543]

I'm sorry you had to go through this.
How long after you ingested the SN did you get to the hospital? It sounds like if you just had another hour or so that you wouldn't be here talking about this. It says you were conscious when you arrived. Would you be willing to detail any pain you might have been experiencing?

I'm not sure about the specifics with times. I was in the ambulance at 18:45 and then transferred into the air ambulance. I don't know how fast they travel, but if you were to drive to it from where I live, it would take you roughly 45 minutes. Due to the lack of oxygen in my brain, I was conscious, but I couldn't remember any of it, and honestly, I'm kinda glad I don't remember it. In terms of pain, I can't remember any. I was throwing up in the bath, but throwing up isn't really painful.

 

[Upon a hanging Body]

It's hard reading back on it. It sometimes doesn't even feel real, like did I really go through that

How was the experience for you , in the end ? Looking back on it do you feel like you hav trauma or is it just another bad day ?

I've taken sn before too and I'm just trying to get a understanding of how other people... recover from a failed sn attempt.

 

[razor543]

How was the experience for you , in the end ? Looking back on it do you feel like you hav trauma or is it just another bad day ?

I've taken sn before too and I'm just trying to get a understanding of how other people... recover from a failed sn attempt.

I have more trauma from the attempt. I lost all my dignity and now have permanent scars from what they did to me. I just wish that they would let me die. When I look back on it, I regret telling someone what I was going to do; I should have just done it without telling anyone.

 

[MyShadow]

When I look back on it, I regret telling someone what I was going to do; I should have just done it without telling anyone.

Thanks for sharing all of this but this quote in particular is quite helpful. I thought that sharing my plan with someone was somehow helping them understand my pain, but it will only jeopardize the potential of the finalization of my plan.

I will keep this to myself. I need to be free of this life.

 

[Upon a hanging Body]

I have more trauma from the attempt. I lost all my dignity and now have permanent scars from what they did to me. I just wish that they would let me die. When I look back on it, I regret telling someone what I was going to do; I should have just done it without telling anyone.

I was impulsive and took sn with my girlfriend at the time in the other room. She heard me having seizures and called 911.
I've grown emotionally numb to all of my attempts... I just get these idk I guess you could call them ghost feelings or something. I get theses feelings of fading a lot and I end up having seizures sometimes afterwards.

Although I have overdosed a lot so I doubt it has anything to do with the sn attempt.

 

[razor543]

Thanks for sharing all of this but this quote in particular is quite helpful. I thought that sharing my plan with someone was somehow helping them understand my pain, but it will only jeopardize the potential of the finalization of my plan.

I will keep this to myself. I need to be free of this life.

I shouldn't have opened the door to the paramedics. It would have taken them a while to bust down the door, as it's a fire door and very heavy. Those precious minutes they would have taken would have probably ended with me dead.

 

[MyShadow]

I shouldn't have opened the door to the paramedics. It would have taken them a while to bust down the door, as it's a fire door and very heavy. Those precious minutes they would have taken would have probably ended with me dead.

I live in a house with 4 apathetic housemates and we rarely interact. Luckily, they work most of the week so I will have the privacy to CTB at home.

I hate it here so it seems appropriate.

 

[BlockHammer]

Man im sorry that you have to endure this @razor543. If you intended to try this methode again, i hope you'll be succesful

 

[razor543]

Man im sorry that you have to endure this @razor543. If you intended to try this methode again, i hope you'll be succesful

Thank you. I hope so too

 

[boredout]

Hmm did you just start propofol? I'd love to the opportunity to try it.

 

[razor543]

Hmm did you just start propofol? I'd love to the opportunity to try it.

They had me on it in the hospital. I'm not on it anymore.