Venting completely useless to society

[hyuk✮i]

i stay in my room almost all the day, hell i can't barely get out of the bed
my body hurts alot sometimes, i didn't properly shower for months, everything feels overwhelming and scary and tiring
my mom rambles about how lazy i am almost every time, that my room reeks, that i should lock in since ''i'll go to university in a year'' (i plan to dropout anyway cause school just fucked me up for the past years)
i really tried to improve, i genuinely did but it lead to nothing, all that stoicism shit, improvement videos, daily affirmations just all the crap didn't work a dime
i'm just a big load of dogshit, quite a retard too
i'm really that archetype that people will mercilessly bully online, you know the "smelly fucktard" or whatever
i'm really just completely useless, genuinely hoping that everything goes planned to i could die at least next year, i can't do this shit anymore

 

[Grog]

i stay in my room almost all the day, hell i can't barely get out of the bed
my body hurts alot sometimes, i didn't properly shower for months, everything feels overwhelming and scary and tiring
my mom rambles about how lazy i am almost every time, that my room reeks, that i should lock in since ''i'll go to university in a year'' (i plan to dropout anyway cause school just fucked me up for the past years)
i really tried to improve, i genuinely did but it lead to nothing, all that stoicism shit, improvement videos, daily affirmations just all the crap didn't work a dime
i'm just a big load of dogshit, quite a retard too
i'm really that archetype that people will mercilessly bully online, you know the "smelly fucktard" or whatever
i'm really just completely useless, genuinely hoping that everything goes planned to i could die at least next year, i can't do this shit anymore

First off, you're not useless, okay?

Why do you feel this way? Why is it hard to get out of bed for you?

 

[hyuk✮i]

First off, you're not useless, okay?

Why do you feel this way? Why is it hard to get out of bed for you?

i don't know i just don't know i don't know

 

[wham311]

First off, you're not useless, okay?

Why do you feel this way? Why is it hard to get out of bed for you?

Because then the misery starts. And it just leads to the next day of misery. We don't want the day to start. Only pain exists outside

 

[dearlydeparted44]

You're not useless to society. And humans are useless to the planet. So, stop beating yourself up for not being useful to a useless (and destructive) species.

 

[Risperdead-]

hyuki, i feel you.
as you did affirmations, you will do the self conditioning statement repeatedly "i will only react to constructive suggestions".
please telle me if you find this helpful !


to the end of suffering and beyond have yourself a lovely day, you are appreciated

 

[itwillhappensoon]

everyone is useless anyway ,life is meaningless in a sense, I know how you feel , don't beat yourself too much about it

 

[wham311]

You're not useless to society. And humans are useless to the planet. So, stop beating yourself up for not being useful to a useless (and destructive) species.

Literally yes, this is just a platitude.

I can't work I have no friends I'm not good at anything, I am useless to society

 

[lv-nii]

 

[EgoBrained]

Useless to society? Who exactly gets to decide whether you're useless or not? What is society if not the individual? You don't have to justify your existence to "society"; if the people around you are willing to put up with you, that's all that matters.
I myself have people who put up with my complete lack of drive, but as it stands now, it seems that I bring them cause for restlessness and for that, I have to die.