Completely alone, surrounded by abusers

[Efilismislife]

Just wondering if theres anyone who is as messed up as me here/has a tragic life as me?


even in here i cant find

Surrounded by enemies/abusers and have no one by my side, constantly insecure for the entire life

Alone suffering, because its my own family who destroyed me physical abuse+mental abuse, threatens me, took every happiness and goodness in me replaced it with pain&unfixable disaster until i become sick with chronic rare incurable diseases with no life and future, no social life and alone

Basically want me to become trash


But before they took me and torture me i was a bright child that even others want to adopt me, but they took me only to make me a human sacrifice because theyre psychopath.


They also abuse pets. Many pets have been tormented in the house. From a great condition until being terrible and some died just for fun.


I cant relate and feel insecure, alienated with most of the people cause they have people, things valuable worthy to them, confidence, support system, people who are dear to them, a future a life, and i dont have any


the only thing that keep me not ctbing is because of SI and traumatize and afraid of dying



Even writing this is useless i know, because i couldnt do what i should do and keep distracting myself

This world is a sick show

 

[gomenasai]

I'm sorry life brought you to this point. I can relate to you. I also had my entire life destroyed by my family (my health and my future) so I understand your sentiment very well. What won't help you is ruminating about the past that you can't change. You are here right now at this very moment. I hope you can find peace one way or another. I wish you the best

 

[Silent.Tears]

Oh no, this is horrible. You need to get yourself away from those evil people. Are you a minor? If so, then I would really suggest you to get help from authorities. Animal abuse is also a crime.

 

[jodes2]

I'm so sorry you're suffering in your environment

 

[niiina]

It really angers me to read that. I'm truly sorry about what they did to you. You're still that bright child, it's inside of you somewhere.
Even tho those people are completely deranged, you're not, you're nothing like them. You have the right to live (or die if you choose so) and to make your own place in this world, you'll never ever be trash, they're trash!
You deserve some peace and rest, in life or in death.
I know it's not enough, I'd like to give you a hand to pull you out of the darkness but I can't, I can only wish you all the best and that you can find forces to be far away from all of those who tormented you

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

You are definitely not alone in what you have faced. I am in the exact same situation. Malignant narc parents and siblings,psychiatric abuse, trapped in home,health,character and career everything destroyed by them due to years and years of severe hidden abuses. And nothing left as of now. Narcissistic psychopathic parents are truly the worst people on earth. The way they and other enablers destroy the scapegoat or their victim is something unbelievable. I hope you find some peace in whatever way you can and please know it was not your fault at all.

 

[Lucilius]

Is there no way you can run away? Also what diseases are those?