Blowba
A Girl on the Shore
- Aug 12, 2018
- 76
As my birthday is coming closer I can legally buy cigarettes, the problem is that I used to smoke as a coping mechanism for my emotions mainly anger and depression. I quit almost a year back but every now and then when I cry so much or am angry I want to smoke and I even get a chill/tingling sensation all over my body when I really want one. I am worried now that I can easily get them when its my birthday I will go back to them. I have thoughts of just getting one pack thats it but I am scared I am going to be heavily reliant again. Its just in the back of my head that I am able to get them. Trying to convince myself that one won't hurt me