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ImNotReal

ImNotReal

Don't wake me up
Jan 18, 2025
213
I think I'm just spiraling but I love cigerattes so fucking much it makes me so happy they're killing me slowly. It fulfills my need of feeling like shit all the time and it gives me breaks at work. They give me the same feeling as when I used to take random pills to feel like shit when I was a bit younger. Deep stomach and chest aches give me such a weird comfort lol
 
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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
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Michi_Violeta

Michi_Violeta

why couldn't it be me?
Feb 3, 2025
513
It's the exact reason why I smoke, every little stick feels like 5 minutes less of life. I had quit smoking while I was with my ex and then, in December when I took it back, a guy from the shop asked me: "Hey, I didn't know you smoked. Is it because of your ex, because of your car or...everything?"

Yeah, everything.
 
porroman_volteretas

porroman_volteretas

New Member
Feb 3, 2025
1
I know the feeling. I don't care about what I smoke anymore, I just love the feeling of inhaling anything that isn't air. And the knowledge that it's killing me only adds to it. I'm quite poor, so I smoke anything I can find just to get my lungs filled with smoke, if I get cancer I won't try to heal it.
 

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