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everything will be okay in the end
- Jul 14, 2022
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the good old Columbia questionnaire.
"Have you had suicidal thoughts and had some intention of acting on them?"
and what do i, someone who always considers suicide an option, say? i say no, because im not willing to spend tonight in the ER, being prodded by the same questions over and over again. and therefore my suicidality as a symptom is dismissed and my care moving forward is extremely unproductive.
mh professionals seem to ignore the existence of chronic suicidality. those who struggle with it each and every day, who would die at the blink of an eye if given a chance. these people are then placed into a health system catered to acute suicidal patients, and ignore the fact that to you, suicidal intent is as prevalent as taking a breath.
i'm bothered, and im stuck. it's been 6 months of hardcore NEETing, 6 months of legitimate purposelessness. no one i speak to understands the existence of CONSTANT suicidality, CONSTANT call to the void, CONSTANT feelings of hopelessness and defeat.
i don't know what to do, and that's why i am here. there are no answers for us, those who get persistent thoughts of suicide anytime they aren't preoccupied with civilian life.
"Have you had suicidal thoughts and had some intention of acting on them?"
and what do i, someone who always considers suicide an option, say? i say no, because im not willing to spend tonight in the ER, being prodded by the same questions over and over again. and therefore my suicidality as a symptom is dismissed and my care moving forward is extremely unproductive.
mh professionals seem to ignore the existence of chronic suicidality. those who struggle with it each and every day, who would die at the blink of an eye if given a chance. these people are then placed into a health system catered to acute suicidal patients, and ignore the fact that to you, suicidal intent is as prevalent as taking a breath.
i'm bothered, and im stuck. it's been 6 months of hardcore NEETing, 6 months of legitimate purposelessness. no one i speak to understands the existence of CONSTANT suicidality, CONSTANT call to the void, CONSTANT feelings of hopelessness and defeat.
i don't know what to do, and that's why i am here. there are no answers for us, those who get persistent thoughts of suicide anytime they aren't preoccupied with civilian life.