Cheers to those who will CTB soon! How do you feel?

[HorribleFeelings1]

Nervous? Scared? Happy? Worried? Proud? Stressful? Sad? Peaceful?

What's making you feel like It. As someone who will CTB soon I'm certainly nervous and bummed out my life is gonna end early when I can't do much right now, due to covid 19. So how do you all feel right now?

 

[LMLN]

Peaceful but nervous!

 

[InTheAirTonight]

None of those. Just feeling envy and contempt. Envy for everyone else in life who is able to live nornally but I can't. Contempt for the people and circumstances in my life that led to this. Just feeling terribly unlucky and death is my only escape.

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

Even tho I'm a little nervous I can't wait for it. It's the only way out of this hell my life have become.

 

[lovedread]

free...my SN has arrived but it hasn't set in that I will be gone soon...very pleased

 

[ExitStageLeft]

At peace.

 

[TiredOfWakingUp]

Anxious to find out what's on the other side. Even if its nothing its better than struggling to live, and being bored and unsatisfied all the time.

 

[Androgynous19]

i would say peaceful though the unknown is kind of scary. I plan to ctb before the end of may.

 

[LonelyHeart]

I'll finally get a good nights sleep!

 

[JohnUK]

Good and dare I say it excitedabout ctb. So tired with life now, just needing to get it over and done with

 

[vonvonwantpeace]

HAPPY and PEACEFUL.

 

[Nobbo]

Nervous because I'm scared of what will happen after I die but I guess it can't be a lot worse than being alive

 

[William Barker]

Annoyed at all the obstacles that kept preventing from doing it thus far.

 

[itsamadworld]

I have my SN, but I'm not ready just yet.. I'm gonna quit my job in June. I work in a concentrationcamp...I mean a memory care unit... I have to totally submit too the pro-lifers agenda, and force people with dementia to endure the decline, without the option to have physicians assistance suicide, or at least legally the N to do it oneself before they get advanced.. A c.camp is better in one way, for sure. At in a cc, one can at least die! The pro-lifers laws strong arm us all..I'm tired of being at the mercy of prolifers.,.this alone makes me glad I have SN, but I hear it's painful...I wish I could get N ...but pro-lifers want us to suffer in death

 

[Shinbu]

I'm happy I have the option as I don't like living in reality, and being human due to the inconveniences. If reality was a video game, and I was a game reviewer in a utopia world I would give the game a rating of 0/10 with the phrase "It fucking sucks, don't bother using it for VR."

 

[ladolcemorte]

Nervous that I will screw it up again.

 

[Nobbo]

Nervous that I will screw it up again.

What's your plan how you gonna ctb correctly? Im scared to actually Do it

 

[HorribleFeelings1]

Nervous that I will screw it up again.

I'm just nervous of surviving SN

 

[Deformationalplagio]

I'm just nervous of surviving SN

Im nervous that it could be painfull

 

[Finished]

Glad that it will all be over

 

[Jumper Geo]

i'm shitting myself as a clairvoyant told me something 30ish years ago, I didn't know her but worked in the same Law Firm for about 6 ,months and she kept telling me things I couldn't and wouldn't believe them and it's all coming true believe me ctb is the easy option but I haven't tested my SI yet.

I cannot fail.

Cheers

Geo

 

[William Barker]

Anxious to find out what's on the other side. Even if its nothing its better than struggling to live, and being bored and unsatisfied all the time.

True that, friend!

 

[Crows]

Scared to fucking death, wish that was a way to ctb

 

[Empirespy]

I was relieved, everything was in order, and I was ready to go. Then my method failed so now I'm anxious, I thought my method was "fool-proof", which makes me wonder about how the next attempt could go wrong. It too seems pretty certain, but Life er finds a way I guess...

 

[Squiddy]

I wish I had the courage to just do it

 

[AcornUnderground]

I'm in complete and total despair, scared to death and unable to go. I needed to do it yesterday. I'm in a horrible loop.

 

[William Barker]

If one Nike sold bottles of courage instead of shoes...

 

[itssasssh144]

I am planning to, but not sure. I still have hope for my physical condition to improve, I just don't know when.. Previous times I've tried or planned to, i've felt all sorts of ways. From peaceful to sad and depressed due to thinking of my family reacting. Right now I'm terrified as I'm consistently suffering with anxiety that is leading me to want to ctb, I just can't escape the anxiety anymore. Even the thought of suicide isn't helping like it used to.. Used to make me feel peaceful.

 

[Swoods]

I am at peace, or more accurately a comfortable resignation.

 

[William Barker]

Looking forwards to whatever awaits me