
NotOurFriend
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- Jan 9, 2024
- 13
You know, I dont wanna kill myself at the Moment, I just want do die, If that makes Sense.
Somtimes i think to myself, wouldnt it be great, to gather all my Money, book a one way ticket to Thailand, rent a cheap room for like 2 weeks and then spending everything else on drugs and alcohol while partying all the time and having Sex with every beautiful guy i find there, knowing full well i am going to take a cyanide pill at the end of it. That would be the best two weeks of my life, the only two weeks i could enjoy without worrying, because i am going to kill myself at the end anyways. I would be able to do everything i want before i finally die.
Does someone have similar thoughts ? Does this Sound reasonable to you ?
Also i am fucking sober for like two days now, its a bad feeling, gonna start drinking tomorrow again, cause who the fuck actually cares. (Just thought i add this, dont know Why)
Somtimes i think to myself, wouldnt it be great, to gather all my Money, book a one way ticket to Thailand, rent a cheap room for like 2 weeks and then spending everything else on drugs and alcohol while partying all the time and having Sex with every beautiful guy i find there, knowing full well i am going to take a cyanide pill at the end of it. That would be the best two weeks of my life, the only two weeks i could enjoy without worrying, because i am going to kill myself at the end anyways. I would be able to do everything i want before i finally die.
Does someone have similar thoughts ? Does this Sound reasonable to you ?
Also i am fucking sober for like two days now, its a bad feeling, gonna start drinking tomorrow again, cause who the fuck actually cares. (Just thought i add this, dont know Why)
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