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OzymandiAsh

OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
217
I am hoping to CTB using this method, this week. I can't pin down an exact day yet cos I am still finalising one thing, but it will almost certainly be this week.

It's been a pleasure to be part of this community for a short while, I see some threads criticising SaSu but honestly I am really grateful, you are a great bunch of people and this is one of the most compassionate places on the internet I think. Also the information is super useful and has probably saved me from making riskier and more painful attempts.

Thanks! As much as suicide can be a sad occasion, in my case I consider it more a cause for celebration - I believe I will go to a better place, and that my suffering in this one will finally end. I struggled for years with a neurological condition (FND) and chronic trauma, depression and stress. Maybe it sounds pretty grim but I'm actually pretty excited, I can hardly wait lol

My chosen method (using an exercise band and a wooden spatula as a turning handle) will almost certainly work, but if not I will move on to more conventional ligature strangulation with a thin rope. I will post if my primary method was unsuccessful, otherwise please assume I was successful.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

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May 10, 2025
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good luck,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering 🫂:heart:
 
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fruitninjamaster

fruitninjamaster

I love the high of choking myself
Dec 21, 2025
55
Congratulations on this time of celebration in your life, we enjoyed having you here, please keep us updated and let me know if I can support you
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope you find freedom from suffering, I wish you the best.
 
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dalemar

Student
Nov 20, 2025
195
I really hope you can get rid of your suffering. FND and all those conditions are terrible. Sending you love!
 
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Xi-Xi

永遠迷失的女孩
Nov 19, 2025
86
I really hope you find your freedom, and the bus ride is smooth. Even though I will miss you quite a bit, since you were one of the first to welcome me into the forum, I also wouldn't want you to suffer. Please be safe and clean.
 
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OzymandiAsh

OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
217
Thanks for the kind messages all :)

I have finalised everything and should be ready to go in the next few hours. Drinking some homemade mulled wine, feeling relaxed.

Assuming I'm successful, bye guys, it's been a privilege :)
 
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UnrulyNightmare

UnrulyNightmare

Wanderer
Jul 3, 2024
439
Wishing you peace either way ❤️
 
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OzymandiAsh

OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
217
My main method (with exercise band) was sadly unsuccessful, as I've updated the post linked in the OP here, and I am too tired for now. I will get some rest and try classic ligature strangulation later with a thin rope and black bin bag over my head. If that still somehow doesn't work, I guess I'll be getting cable ties.
 
Dawnfang11

Dawnfang11

Fate calls to us all
Dec 21, 2025
16
My main method (with exercise band) was sadly unsuccessful, as I've updated the post linked in the OP here, and I am too tired for now. I will get some rest and try classic ligature strangulation later with a thin rope and black bin bag over my head. If that still somehow doesn't work, I guess I'll be getting cable ties.
Wishing you better luck with your backup method
Hope you get your peace o7
 
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Spicy Tteokbokki

Spicy Tteokbokki

매운 떡볶이
Oct 11, 2020
327
Thanks for the kind messages all :)

I have finalised everything and should be ready to go in the next few hours. Drinking some homemade mulled wine, feeling relaxed.

Assuming I'm successful, bye guys, it's been a privilege :)
Take care and I hope your last moments are peaceful <3
 

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