Caved into fear. Didnt go through

[Majestatea Masiva]

I suck so much at even ending myself I couldnt even drink a glass of water and salt. This universe must be hell.

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

What thoughts have activated SI and stopped you from drinking it ? I've been planning on maybe meditating and trying to empty my mind on my ctb date, maybe that helps to suppress fear

 

[Majestatea Masiva]

What thoughts have activated SI and stopped you from drinking it ? I've been planning on maybe meditating and trying to empty my mind on my ctb date, maybe that helps to suppress fear

that im scared because its night, and that im never gonna have the ability to experience specific things I know I liked
also the false illusion that ill just fix my social reputation if I stay alive.
next time ill meditate myself for sure

 

[FuneralCry]

The reality is that suicide isn't always straightforward to go through with even if one has a reliable method by their side, I just think that after all only the individual knows when the time is right to leave this world. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[starrvingstar]

that im scared because its night, and that im never gonna have the ability to experience specific things I know I liked
also the false illusion that ill just fix my social reputation if I stay alive.
next time ill meditate myself for sure

stay alive and achieve those experiences