Discussion causing your own depression

[sleepy dog]

I just wonder how much my thoughts are responsible for my desire to be dead. Am I causing myself to be suicidal? If I could stop thinking that I would be better off dead, would I feel better? Would life suddenly become worth all the struggle? If I could stop thinking this way for long enough, a month, six months, would I want to continue living and fight for the good results? It probably seems like stupid things to say. Maybe I don't know how to explain what I am trying to say.

 

[pole]

I just wonder how much my thoughts are responsible for my desire to be dead. Am I causing myself to be suicidal? If I could stop thinking that I would be better off dead, would I feel better? Would life suddenly become worth all the struggle? If I could stop thinking this way for long enough, a month, six months, would I want to continue living and fight for the good results? It probably seems like stupid things to say. Maybe I don't know how to explain what I am trying to say.

i definitely understand. its hard to usually articulate and voice you're emotions but you're definitely making sense.

dwelling on negativity, CONSTANTLY thinking about the bad stuff, worst things to happen to me in life, the worst of life, wanting to die and constantly thinking about death, overthinking every situation and thinking its gonna end up bad, LITERALLY JUST THINKING AND OVERTHINKIMG AS A WHOLE, ESPECIALLY NEGATIVITY has destroyed me. whether its the way i look, what im doing, literally anything. Its stopped me from growing, recovering and trying to feel better, to enjoy and live life. And till we cut these thoughts off, and improve our environments, it's these very same thoughts that are gonna hold us back. changing you're mindset from negative to positive for a while, and doing things that scare you, that you usually dont do, that you think you might enjoy doing that you havent done while thinking positively would help immensely; essentially placing urself in more of a positive environment, mentally and physically.

like people say, you're energy, how you think, etc; is the energy you give out and the energy that's reciprocated to you. And i somewhat agree. Even though im trying my absolute best to get better, i havent changed this negative mindset, and overthinking; and its stopped me from getting better, getting more positive things, being happy, because im simply not thinking about such things most of the time and giving such energy in trying to have it reciprocated. but its HARD.

i wish i was numb, didnt feel, didnt think as much as i do, etc; id be 1000000x better and just living and enjoying life and not giving a shit about anyone or anything. im trying to be numb and not dwell about stuff or care about anything or anyone and till i do, is when ill truly get better.

so ur 100 percent right, and ITS SUCH A GOOD THING ur actually thinking about this critically as well. I definitely think you should give it a chance! yolo right? You only live once, ur possibly set on dying, does it hurt to try? i hope you give it a chance. hope you feel better and find peace.

 

[sleepy dog]

For example using this site sometimes the bad feelings gets to be too much. From reading and discussing it with others.

 

[JimFord99]

This probably can be described as karma. Not sure it is entirely true but it does exist. The way you think is the way you feel, this is what you radiate and what you receive. However, very hard to achieve a positive result. I personally find it very hard to think and act in a positive way.

 

[pole]

For example using this site sometimes the bad feelings gets to be too much. From reading and discussing it with others.

Exactly like me. Ur a sensitive person, it definitely gets overwhelming and thats okay. i personally take a break from here sometimes when i do.feel like this and go to other suicide help rooms to get help.

This probably can be described as karma. Not sure it is entirely true but it does exist. The way you think is the way you feel, this is what you radiate and what you receive. However, very hard to achieve a positive result. I personally find it very hard to think and act in a positive way.

Yeah exactly it. Iv tried to do both, and trying to get better at the same time. and iv realized, how the hell do i think im gonna get better with a negative mindset, constant overthinking, etc? And wish for postivity and happiness and good things to be reciprocated to me.

 

[sleepy dog]

This probably can be described as karma. Not sure it is entirely true but it does exist. The way you think is the way you feel, this is what you radiate and what you receive. However, very hard to achieve a positive result. I personally find it very hard to think and act in a positive way.

I find it very hard to be positive also. I don't understand why.

 

[pole]

I find it very hard to be positive also. I don't understand why.

well when were stuck in a negative mindset for long periods of time; its hard to think of anything positive, if its a completely different emotion of what we've been feeling.

 

[Pistolero114]

It is possible that certain people places & things can bring depression right up front. However; the neurological studies say it's some sort of problem with neurotransmitters not being manufactured in correct amounts. And/or the neurons are not properly receiving and holding said neurotransmitters. (Dopamine, seratonin stuff like that) that being said; can you be the cause of your depression? Me thinks not. But you can allow it to be triggered. Hope this helps some.

 

[GreyMonkey]

I'm right here with you.

Even though I have so many lovely people in my life... just a small reach away... I'm in so much negativity and despair I can't seem to touch them and I can't seem to be positive enough to get out there.

I just sit in my own hell and don't know the way out.

And I wonder... what the fuck karma, why was I designed this way???