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- Apr 10, 2023
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Hey Sasu, been a minute since I have been active.
Spent a couple months going through some shit and trying to get better, but I am now back to square 1. Used to own a pretty active unofficial discord server with a pretty tight community, but once I left it died. I had my planned suicide 2 weeks ago, but that didn't go through. It is fucking hard and it kills me that I relapsed on this site. I broke tonight and had to scroll. I wish I was able to break free from my mess called my "mental health". I an just weirdly attracted to the site, as nihilistic as that sounds.
I started cutting again, I started alcohol again, I wish i wasn't such a lazy and weak person. Fucking hell, i can barely pass classes and here I am worrying about every single little detail about myself. My self image is in shambles.
I hope it isnt just me that tries to take a break from this site and fails.
Sorry to everyone I ghosted.
Spent a couple months going through some shit and trying to get better, but I am now back to square 1. Used to own a pretty active unofficial discord server with a pretty tight community, but once I left it died. I had my planned suicide 2 weeks ago, but that didn't go through. It is fucking hard and it kills me that I relapsed on this site. I broke tonight and had to scroll. I wish I was able to break free from my mess called my "mental health". I an just weirdly attracted to the site, as nihilistic as that sounds.
I started cutting again, I started alcohol again, I wish i wasn't such a lazy and weak person. Fucking hell, i can barely pass classes and here I am worrying about every single little detail about myself. My self image is in shambles.
I hope it isnt just me that tries to take a break from this site and fails.
Sorry to everyone I ghosted.
