Caretakers for patients with dementia

[noname223]

Honestly, it sounds pretty fucked up what they have to endure. It doesn't seem to be that seldom that dementia patients want their genitals to be washed. Not for hygiene more for sexual gratifcation. Some dementia patients lose their inhibitions.

Honestly, I might have to cope with the fact that I will be forced to commit suicide at some point. Maybe I could comfort me that at least I wouldn't risk such a fate. I really wouldn't like to sexually assault or molest women. I once listened to a news article where a woman described that her demented once very religious mother started to masturbate in the supermarket for everyone to see.

I think in the health sector there happens a lot of sexual violence. From higher doctors but also from patients. However, as you read on here sometimes the the patients are the victims of abuse. It is a nasty world we live in.

I really don't like the notion to lose control of my actions. Even in my psychosis I was able to self-regulate a lot. But I also was unhinged. I never took drugs because I hate the notion so much to lose control. Never drunk alcohol in my whole life.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I worked in a care home for a brief period and, dementia is such a cruel set of symptoms.

I mostly dread experiencing it, because you can return (in your mind) to former periods of your life. There's no way I want to experience parts of my childhood again. It's bad enough when I dream about it.

It affects people in different ways. Obviously- to different extents too. Some people could be lucid for blocks of time before coming out with strange things and behaviour.

It did affect some of them in a sexual way and some were violent. That was extremely distressing because- they would perceive what care assistants were doing to care for them as a threat and- fight back. And, no amount of explaining would change that.

Truly- the people I worked with were angels (luckily) but- you can easily see how such vulnerable people could be abused. Even just lost patience with- who does want to be hit and pinched during a 'normal' working day? Some people, you would simply dread going in to 'help'.

While it's embarassing sometimes- I think a lot of people who go in to care jobs are prepared to understand/ accept that the person's behaviour is because of their illness and, try to look beyond it.

I suppose also- it depends on just how aware the person themselves is- of their own illness. That, I found quite strange. That- while many would get confused, not quite so many seemed deeply distressed that they felt confused. Again though- not all. They were all different.

I definitely want out before any of that takes a hold though. I don't really want to have to be taken care of in order to live in any sense really. I hate having to rely on other people.