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Idontmatter
Just want it all to be over
- Oct 25, 2021
- 647
I seriously can't clear my head. All I can think about is ctb from dusk to dawn. I should be happy because we are in a better place than we used to be. All I can see in the future is struggle, and constant worrying about crap that I don't need to worry about. All I hear in my head is I want to die. I never smile. I wake up in the worst mood because I dread the day. Work is a nightmare. As always sorry- I just had to vent. This is the only place where I won't have someone telling me to "just think positive ". Fuck, I wish it were that easy. If it is was I wouldn't be here sitting and wanting to die. I have no motivation whatsoever. All I do is sit and watch tv when I'm not working. It all just seems hopeless.