gothfairy
sad girl
- Nov 12, 2019
- 64
everything is falling apart. i saved myself for a boy and now he's moving away and doesn't want to see me anymore. it's getting harder and harder to stay sober. i can't find antiemetics anymore so SN might be out of the question. i feel so helpless and desperate for a way out and i'm prone to impulse attempts and im going back to college tomorrow so i might end up back in the hospital and get kicked out of school.
it really seems like everything is just completely breaking down, like it's the perfect storm and i'm meant to kill myself, so maybe i won't fail at an impulse attempt. we'll see i guess. it's hard because i know things can be good because i have felt better before it's just so hard to remember that feeling and have hope for it to come back. i feel like i'm already dead.
it really seems like everything is just completely breaking down, like it's the perfect storm and i'm meant to kill myself, so maybe i won't fail at an impulse attempt. we'll see i guess. it's hard because i know things can be good because i have felt better before it's just so hard to remember that feeling and have hope for it to come back. i feel like i'm already dead.
