Can't even be bothered to go to college anymore

[Reflection]

I keep trying to get out of bed with suicide being the only thing on my mind so I just give up and spend half the day doing nothing, even now I'm sitting contemplating whether I should do it sooner or not instead of catching up on unfinished projects and assignments. I honestly wish i could just send the scheduled emails now and be done with it, this hope that's keeping me alive seems more false by the second.

 

[ThatGuyOverThere]

Same here, when I was younger and was attending secondary school, I would either not attend or would show up late, because I could never wake up in time, not because I was tired, but because the simple thought of attending school made me depressed, but then translating those thoughts into actions and then actually attending school took so much mental effort that I would be mentally drained and exhausted merely just hours after waking up. Those days were the worst most suicide inducing years of my life, even resulting In a failed CTB attempt when I was 12. I stopped attending school though, And have become some what of a NEET, just another drain in system that I hate so dearly.

 

[kimcoffee_]

Bed rotting is hell I know the feeling to well.