Venting Can't ctb. Is the psych ward the only option left?

[WornOutLife]

Geez! You know? I'm doing my best to kick my depression's ass but it keeps beating the sh*t outta me.
So, I was wondering what other options do I have left?

CTB? It seems I can't because my SN is not coming and I suck at partial hanging.
Pro-lifer mode ON? I try to but I just can't.
Psych ward because I'll eventually go mad? Probably!!

However, how long would I be in a psych ward? Months? Years? Forever and ever? Will I really lose my mind?
So many questions!


Anyone who can't ctb for whatever reason...can relate to this?

 

[Nymph]

I guess if you check your self in and find it horrible then you'd have to pretend that you're okay and they'd let you go. I don't personally have experience with this though so I can't help much, I think it also depends on where you live.
I can't ctb because I have a bunny and I don't wanna leave him alone so I can relate... there isn't much I can do but ctb or just suffer. If you find a good ward then it might not be too bad honestly, I have thought about it but I'm still not sure

 

[Querlista]

Not being able to ctb because of the lack of means even though you want to can be the worst.

As for the ward it really depends on where you live and on the ward specifically. If you get a good one it can actually be a nice experience. Not having any chores to do, getting cared for, having nice therapies and going for walks all day long can be quiet relaxing. I imagine this to be the perfect life of a pretty active and very old gandma lol
And where I live at they can't keep you forever. I asked once but I forgot how long they can keep you but it was a few months I think (even for forced stay, no idea where they put you after that tho)

Whatever you do I hope you'll find some comfort :)

 

[Mentalmick]

It will depend on where you're from. In the UK you can't sign yourself in and there are no long stay wards anymore.

 

[Querlista]

It will depend on where you're from. In the UK you can't sign yourself in and there are no long stay wards anymore.

The UK sounds like a real nightmare mental health service wise

 

[BandAddict]

Oh my fuck, yes. I can't get SN yet, I need to order it before it possibly gets taken down. Even if I had it right now though, I don't think I'd be able to go through with it for a few reasons. I'm seriously considering going to a psych ward for the 6th time, but Covid makes it sound like it might be a pain in the ass. So, I don't know either, man.

I guess you could try it out, and if you change your mind, just be really fucking compliant so they trust you enough to let you go. As to how long they'd keep you otherwise, I wouldn't know. Good luck with whatever you do.

 

[elfgyoza]

It will depend on where you're from. In the UK you can't sign yourself in and there are no long stay wards anymore.

Can still be months unfortunately. I got sectioned last month, thought I'd be there a few days. My 28 days (length of section 2) approached and then I suddenly found myself on a section 3, which can be up to 6 months. I've been here for about 5 weeks now, discharge hasn't even been mentioned yet and apparently after 6 months they can just keep renewing it anyway. Some people can stay for months or years, really depends what kind of treatment they think you need

 

[WornOutLife]

I guess if you check your self in and find it horrible then you'd have to pretend that you're okay and they'd let you go. I don't personally have experience with this though so I can't help much, I think it also depends on where you live.
I can't ctb because I have a bunny and I don't wanna leave him alone so I can relate... there isn't much I can do but ctb or just suffer. If you find a good ward then it might not be too bad honestly, I have thought about it but I'm still not sure

You know? I always remember that bunny of yours. It's really cute how you take care of him.
As for me, I love my dog and don't want to leave him alone. (well, in my case, even if i ctb, but dad will take care of him because he loves him as much as I do)

 

[Mentalmick]

The UK sounds like a real nightmare mental health service wise

It's getting there. It's a bit of a scandal over here.

 

[Wrennie]

Personally I'd avoid psych wards like the plague. At least in my experience they haven't been remotely helpful. In fact, I'd wager that the time I spent there just further cemented my resolve to die.

Psych wards can be great if your goal is to meet like-minded people, which can be healing in its own right, but I wouldn't get your hopes up if you're expecting anything from the mental health "professionals" that work there. Maybe some people have had better luck than I have, but in my case the services they provided were downright terrible.

 

[WornOutLife]

Personally I'd avoid psych wards like the plague. At least in my experience they haven't been remotely helpful. In fact, I'd wager that the time I spent there just further cemented my resolve to die.

Psych wards can be great if your goal is to meet like-minded people, which can be healing in its own right, but I wouldn't get your hopes up if you're expecting anything from the mental health "professionals" that work there. Maybe some people have had better luck than I have, but in my case the services they provided were abhorrent.

Thank you so much for your wise words! I really appreciate it!

 

[Mentalmick]

Can still be months unfortunately. I got sectioned last month, thought I'd be there a few days. My 28 days (length of section 2) approached and then I suddenly found myself on a section 3, which can be up to 6 months. I've been here for about 5 weeks now, discharge hasn't even been mentioned yet and apparently after 6 months they can just keep renewing it anyway. Some people can stay for months or years, really depends what kind of treatment they think you need

Years? Christ, must be a Scottish thing.

 

[life-eternal]

I'm on the same boat man. I would like to find a nice one near a beach or something, where i can speak with therapists or something as a sort of last resort, but unfortunately where I live this doesn't exist.

 

[elfgyoza]

Years? Christ, must be a Scottish thing.

Yet to meet anyone like that, but this is the first time I've been in hospital. Most people are here for a few weeks, others just take longer to settle is all. I can't access this level of psychological support in the community, which I think is why I'm still in here.
I'm in England btw, I'm finding it quite hard to get out now that I'm in here, it's like I have to prove to them I won't kill myself haha

 

[nowhere2befound]

I haven't heard a positive comment from anyone that has been to a psych ward and managed to get out

 

[WornOutLife]

I haven't heard a positive comment from anyone that has been to a psych ward and managed to get out

True! I'm really scared of it! I just don't know how to move on!

 

[nowhere2befound]

Idk bro, you seem like a pro lifer to me to be honest. Start taking cold showers and jog and what not. What is your reason to ctb if i may ask

 

[signifying nothing]

I'm doing my best to kick my depression's ass but it keeps beating the sh*t outta me.
So, I was wondering what other options do I have left?

Rather than trying to kick its ass, maybe you could try reasoning with your depression, try to understand it - find out what's its trying to accomplish.

Because I think there is often a reason for depression to do what it does to us, as a kind of protection or defense mechanism. It is a part of your mind after all, so trying to fight against it is like trying to fight yourself.

I don't know anything about psych wards, but if you think a change of surroundings might help you get a handle on things I'd say give it a go.

 

[Fragile]

In a way I can relate, not because lack of a good method, but because of the pain that my death will cause is something that I want to avoid and the only reason why I'm still here.

I already told my brother, if they want to keep me alive when my mental capacities start to decline, they are welcome to keep me locked in a psych hospital as a glorified pet, because apparently that's the way it goes with people who can't recover.

But to be honest, I can't picture a worse hell than living in a psychiatric hospital, not only because of the lack of freedom and privacy, my main fear is having to take shitty drugs with terrible side effects by force, daily. it's inhumane to an extreme degree.

 

[Squiddy]

Oh my fuck, yes. I can't get SN yet, I need to order it before it possibly gets taken down. Even if I had it right now though, I don't think I'd be able to go through with it for a few reasons. I'm seriously considering going to a psych ward for the 6th time, but Covid makes it sound like it might be a pain in the ass. So, I don't know either, man.

I guess you could try it out, and if you change your mind, just be really fucking compliant so they trust you enough to let you go. As to how long they'd keep you otherwise, I wouldn't know. Good luck with whatever you do.

I relate to what you said so much. Though I was able to snag some SN today, but it doesn't get here for awhile. Even though I'll have it, there are a few things holding me back, so I'm thinking to myself is it time for a 16th stay at the psych ward for me? Though covid is awful here and my mom would be bitching about me being inpatient. Also I don't feel like going because every time I do go, they try to make me take out my septum piercing and I don't want to take it out because it was hell to get pierced.

 

[nowhere2befound]

I relate to what you said so much. Though I was able to snag some SN today, but it doesn't get here for awhile. Even though I'll have it, there are a few things holding me back, so I'm thinking to myself is it time for a 16th stay at the psych ward for me? Though covid is awful here and my mom would be bitching about me being inpatient. Also I don't feel like going because every time I do go, they try to make me take out my septum piercing and I don't want to take it out because it was hell to get pierced.

Wow 16th, congrats on your bravery

 

[Squiddy]

Wow 16th, congrats on your bravery

I'm trying my best to keep it together, but it gets really hard at times. I haven't been to the psych ward in about 5 months now, but it might be time to go back potentially

 

[Donk]

@WornOutLife have you tried meds or therapy? From my experience going to the psych ward didn't help much unless you are seeking immediate help or you are at the risk of hurting yourself. It's a control environment with nurses and security preventing you from CTB.

I can't CTB either even though my quality of life is non-existence. I've given up on recovery however I'm being watched 24/7 and there are brief moments where I'm not ready to go yet.

Best of luck

 

[WornOutLife]

@WornOutLife have you tried meds or therapy? From my experience going to the psych ward didn't help much unless you are seeking immediate help or you are at the risk of hurting yourself. It's a control environment with nurses and security preventing you from CTB.

I can't CTB either even though my quality of life is non-existence. I've given up on recovery however I'm being watched 24/7 and there are brief moments where I'm not ready to go yet.

Best of luck

Yes, I'm trying both but they don't seem to be working.
I used to be watched 24/7 by my parents but got my freedom back. The thing is... how long will it last?

 

[rs929]

I.think your fears of lifelong psych ward are irrational. In our country at least. Unless you go completely nuts.

 

[Donk]

Yes, I'm trying both but they don't seem to be working.
I used to be watched 24/7 by my parents but got my freedom back. The thing is... how long will it last?

What happen to your SN? was it intercepted?

 

[WornOutLife]

What happen to your SN? was it intercepted?

Yeah something like that. My seller told me that he "wasn't able to get it shipped"

 

[Shades of Grey]

IME, being in the proverbial "bin" was about constant supervision, and a much-needed break from the stresses of everyday life. In most cases, it's crisis management, not treatment per se.

I benefited far more from the time spent with like-minded individuals than I did from the actual contact with professionals (which was limited at best).

I was there just shy of two weeks, and was released early due to a personal crisis. Honestly, I think they were concerned I'd off myself on the ward if they didn't get me out of there.

But to be honest, I can't picture a worse hell than living in a psychiatric hospital, not only because of the lack of freedom and privacy, my main fear is having to take shitty drugs with terrible side effects by force, daily. it's inhumane to an extreme degree.

I don't know where you live, but if you're in the states, you won't necessarily be forced to take anything if you're voluntarily committed.

I had complete and total control of everything that was put in my body. If anything, I had to pressure them to start meds ASAP because they were dragging their feet, and I wanted out.

I committed myself because I was trying to stick around so that I could be present for a loved one's passing. I was also in possession of a lethal quantity of amitriptyline and could no longer keep from using it. Had I not checked myself in that night, I would be dead.

Because irony is a bitch, said loved one up and died unexpectedly while I was in the bin, and I did not get to be there.

But anyway, they're not necessarily going to force feed you drugs if you're there of your own accord.

 

[Nymph]

Idk bro, you seem like a pro lifer to me to be honest. Start taking cold showers and jog and what not. What is your reason to ctb if i may ask

Choosing recovery is being pro life? Don't dismiss someone's reasons for ctb. You're being pretty rude

 

[Deleted member 22624]

Choosing recovery is being pro life? Don't dismiss someone's reasons for ctb. You're being pretty rude

You're assuming pro-life as an insult lol