Almost 30 and dateless kissless virgin, but also isolated all my life, no social life, no acquaintances no conversations ever and also no work. I know it will never get better. My parents think im fine as long as I've eaten.
If you had a girlfriend or wife or friends would you still want to live? I'm sorry none if this has ever happened to you. I got sick at age 20 with the highest ranking pain condition in medical history so I never got to live and I'm 34 now. I have no clue what love is, what it is to love or what it feels like to be loved. I had a bunch of friends but when you can't go out anymore they don't want anything to do with you. My life is empty and yet full of pain and depression and isolation. Too bad all is lonely people couldn't get together and become friends. It doesn't bother me if someone is socially awkward. When I turned 17 I just came out of my shell and was so outgoing and happy. Unfortunately that only lasted three years. My future is hopeless. I wish you could find some help to get your life back on track because if you aren't physically ill like me it can be really great. if you need to talk I'm here.
It has really surprised me since joining this site 6+ weeks ago to see how many young adults are here. Hurts my heart to see so many of you in pain at what should be the best time of your lives. I didn't get cynical & jaded until much later in life.
It hurts my heart too. I never got to experience my 20s since. I got sick AT 20. I'm 34 now. I've always been cynical haha but I became jaded a few years ago. Just absolutely hopeless. I still feel 20 because I never got to experience life unless it was in a hospital or a doctor's office. I know you're suffering with an awful disease too and no matter what the age we still want to experience things. It was about 3 years ago, I remember because that's when my good friend killed herself because she had the same thing as me, that I became jaded. I wish these young people could see their worth in life and maybe see a therapist for their lack if social skills because life can be beautiful.
It could be worse. You could be a KHHV and in your late 20's like me. Unfortunately, I did start drinking by myself at 21 and onward and I regret that very much now.
I never thought it would actually come down to this to be honest but here I am. I'd rather hire an escort than die a KHHV, even if it is "meaningless." The reason why I didn't hire one years sooner is because of a (perhaps) misplaced sense of pride. It is no longer an issue for me as the alternative outcome is significantly more depressing.
I did too but it was platonic so it doesn't really count.
I'm so sorry you're suffering but you can turn it all around if you want to. Life is passing us by as we type and you have to do what makes you happy. If. Ithing makes you happy you should find out whst that is. If you have poor social skills than maybe see a therapist. I'm not trying to tell you to not CTB. I'm physically sick with the highest ranking pain condition in medical history and am 34. I became sick at 20 so I wasn't able to experience the last 14 years of my life. There is no cure for what I have and the pain is inhumane. I can't believe they don't do andying with dignity for something like what I have. You have to have cancer. So sick of hearing that. I know nothing about love. I've never loved or have been in love. Was chased a lot around by guys but they just thought I was beautiful so they only wanted to get in my pants. They didn't want to know the real me. I was looking for something deeper than just sex. If you ever want to talk I'll be here for a little while. Probably another month or so.
