Cannot get my head off CTB

[NoReasonToLive2023]

I'm not even sure I'm going to want to CTB yet, but I cannot get the idea out of my head. I constantly think about the place where I'm going to CTB, I make up rhymes and songs about it (I've made a parody of The Lion Sleeps Tonight!), and I think about how everything I do might be the last time I do it. I even let slip to an online friend that I'm 37 next birthday - if I make it that far. I'm worried I'm going to say too much to someone and end up in a mental health unit.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It's perfectly understandable that you think about CTB all the time should this be your personal wish under your given life situation. CTB is a general right in my opinion that should be respected at any time one wants to exit this hellish world and existence. I hope you can find peace with a method your are convenient with. I wish you all the best!

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it makes sense thinking of ctb all the time as existing here certainly is so torturous and dreadful, there really is too much suffering in existing and I hate how we exist in a world where people cannot be open about wanting to die without worrying about being locked in a psych ward. It's so inhumane how suicidal people end up being punished for making a decision in which they have every right to make.

 

[The anhedonic one]

The only thing that brings me comfort are thoughts of ctb. Its basically all I think of nowadays.