Can you see a future for yourself?

[Lxions]

I genuinely cannot see a true future for myself. I think about it all the time, but I can't see myself living it out. I didn't even expect to make it this far.

Do you guys see a genuine future for yourselves?

 

[Hunter2005]

No not really, I had plans for the future but I cancel all of them because I'm pretty sure I won't be alive soon.

 

[Zegers]

Yes, but not in this lifetime.

 

[No_Lxve]

I genuinely cannot see a true future for myself. I think about it all the time, but I can't see myself living it out. I didn't even expect to make it this far.

Do you guys see a genuine future for yourselves?i

i really don't see myself alive either. i don't even think i want to be alive for that long.

 

[dimstar]

No I can't but I also dont see dying in say the next 2 weeks. Been like that a long time stuck in a weird limbo. I have everything when I feel ready but just cant, like slowly sinking deeper in water knowing you'll run out of breath eventually but somehow never running out of breath. Futures way to far off to think for how deep I am.

 

[MildlyBetter]

I can honestly, which is why I haven't yet ctb. The day I don't is the day I die.

 

[Alexia]

yes but it's really alone and it's just living but not actually "living"

 

[MyLifeisHell]

Yes and I want to spare myself it.

 

[Riu]

I guess a little bit. Wake up, go to work, come home, look at random stuff on the internet to occupy myself, and then go to bed for the next I don't even know how long.

 

[nosoul]

Zero

 

[leavingsoon99]

I don't see anything happening in the future that would make me look back on this time and what I'm about to do, and think, "I'm glad I didn't do it." I don't see a future personally nor for the human race. Things just look very bleak.

 

[Hollowman]

Yes and it's nothing to look forward to.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Not one that I really want.

 

[apenasumbrasileiro]

No. For many years I cannot envision more than two years in the future at max. I already live in a future i didn't want to. I still fear death and eternal oblivion, but i cannot see myself enduring life much longer.

 

[StruggleWithin]

I do and that's why I am holding on. Even though I know it will be a lonely existence. But the second that future is lost to me...it will be my time to CTB.
MildlyBetter and Alexia, your comments resonate with me.

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

I see one of misery and anguish. I'm scared of being forced here furthering my burden to others. I'm hoping to get my materials soon so I can feel comfort of knowing I don't need to stay here.

 

[Death is my goal]

no

 

[Forever Sleep]

Well, I can't see myself living 'happily ever after.' Really, it's just a whole bunch of treading water desperately. My longterm future looks dire- not enough money to sustain me in retirement/ old age- so, I definitely need to end things before then.

 

[Jeux D'eau]

I can't really see a future beyond half a year or so... Even if I recover I have no clue what will become of me. I have no desire to die of old age anyways.

 

[endless_pain]

No, I just see myself trying forever but never reaching the freedom I am seeking for, suffering every day in an endless cycle

 

[Source Energy]

yes..I can learn some of the stuff I want to try and grow as a person and earn a better income...I can reach professional and body goals...but I would still be empty and sad inside

 

[HadItAll]

Yes, it's gonna keep spiraling downward, so the sooner I leave the better.

 

[HopefulSleep]

I will die 100% by suicide

 

[Mysteries]

Yes. Dead.

 

[kitee80]

Ive never seen a future for myself. Ive always kinda operated on autopilot and doing the normal things my parents and others tell me to do like go to school, get a job etc. And now I'm an "adult" everything seems so pointless. I don't have any hopes/dreams for my future, just stuck in this awful limbo where i am waiting for things to get bad enough to kill myself. I have all the stuff i need, i even made a couple attempts but its hard to follow through with it. It's a living hell, too coward to die, too uninterested in life and living. I wish someone would just murder me.

 

[bloberta]

no :(

 

[Anonymus]

Unfortunately, yes, always... when I try to think about it, there is nothing, but I always get "memories" from the future whether I want it or not.
//
Per desgràcia si, desde sempre... quan intent-ho pensar-hi no hi ha pas rés, però per sota mà sempre em venen, vulgui o no, "records" del futur.

 

[nopride86]

I just turned 30. I look at the people in my age group and can't help but wonder why I'm innately lacking what they seem to possess (mentally/emotionally, not materialistic).

It's like I WANT to have a family, a career, the desire to live a full life….but I just curl up in a ball and have no desire to participate at all. An aversion to living. Like I'm getting in my own way. But anything else would be inauthentic.

 

[StolenLife]

Yes but it's uncertain, and even if it came true it wouldn't have been much of a future. Just more boredom and anxiety.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's horrific the thought of potentially being trapped here for many more decades, I know that all that lies ahead for me is more suffering where I slowly decay from age in this disgusting flesh prison, tortured by health problems and aware of the futility of it all. To have the ability to exist in this world with no straightforward way to exit truly is a curse and an undeserved punishment, I could never be delusional enough to wish for any future in this harmful world, I only fear being trapped here unable to free myself. Life itself undeniably is the true problem that only death could solve for me.